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deeeeejay

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Nov 1, 2021
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Things have moved quicker than expected. I wanted to have a last drink with my friends tomorrow but actually, I feel it'd be more cruel if I subjected them to that.

So we're here....

In a hotel.

SN weighed out (3 x 25g)

Meds regime started

It's nearly time ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป
 
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Death is beautiful

Death is beautiful

Warlock
May 20, 2021
792
will you make updates?
 
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marinekiwi

marinekiwi

Student
Oct 28, 2021
148
Hope everything goes according to your plan. Wish you the best!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,627
I wish you the best with your plans. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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luckzz3ra

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Oct 29, 2021
22
I wish luck for you
 
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cambrai33

cambrai33

Traveller
Nov 3, 2021
385
Things have moved quicker than expected. I wanted to have a last drink with my friends tomorrow but actually, I feel it'd be more cruel if I subjected them to that.

So we're here....

In a hotel.

SN weighed out (3 x 25g)

Meds regime started

It's nearly time ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป
Wow this has all moved so quickly. I am envious about how quick you got it all together but understanding about the enormity of it all too.

Us being in the same country you could be around the corner from me and we would never know.

I wish you the best and please update as best you can

Thoughts with you both
 
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deeeeejay

Member
Nov 1, 2021
17
will you make updates?
If you'd like? I don't know how long I'll be able ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ
Wow this has all moved so quickly. I am envious about how quick you got it all together but understanding about the enormity of it all too.

Us being in the same country you could be around the corner from me and we would never know.

I wish you the best and please update as best you can

Thoughts with you both
The SN arrived a few days before it was expected which helped speed things up.

This has been planned for a while so luckily I've had everything else in place.

I'll keep updated as long as possible.

Thank you ๐Ÿ˜˜
 
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cambrai33

Traveller
Nov 3, 2021
385
If you'd like? I don't know how long I'll be able ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

The SN arrived a few days before it was expected which helped speed things up.

This has been planned for a while so luckily I've had everything else in place.

I'll keep updated as long as possible.

Thank you ๐Ÿ˜˜
I have an SN source but haven't ordered for fear of exposing myself but have to just take that leap of faith and just do it.

The meto and other stuff could be another level of difficulty to get hold of.

How do you feel? I mean content, nervous, determined? I expect the good planning has helped lots and things are in the place they need to be
 
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deeeeejay

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Nov 1, 2021
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I have an SN source but haven't ordered for fear of exposing myself but have to just take that leap of faith and just do it.

The meto and other stuff could be another level of difficulty to get hold of.

How do you feel? I mean content, nervous, determined? I expect the good planning has helped lots and things are in the place they need to be
If you'd like to check sources, give me a PM.

I'm excited I guess! A little bit nervous. But more just happy that hopefully things will work out
 
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farakini

True Love of the Purest Kind๐Ÿค
Oct 31, 2021
103
I hope all goes well and you ctb to freedom.๐Ÿ’ซโค๏ธ I'll be here for support.
 
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PDAnnie2610

Waiting for my bus.
Oct 27, 2019
701
Peace and safe travels. Hope to join soon.
 
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StarfleetVisionary

StarfleetVisionary

they/them
Nov 2, 2021
3
I hope you find your peace and freedom.
 
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freelifexit

Specialist
Nov 7, 2021
391
Peace and safe travels, please keep updating if you can
 
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obliviousatbest

obliviousatbest

atrophy
Nov 10, 2021
67
Wishing you a peaceful ending and the dissolving of your troubles, whatever happens
 
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xyzasd

Member
Nov 3, 2021
29
I hope you'll find peace. Could you, or someone else, PM me a source of SN pls? I've only found big US companys that don't ship to Europe. Thanks.
 
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sickoffighting

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Apr 15, 2021
5
R u sure this is what u want? There's no turning back?
 
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Beeper

Experienced
Sep 28, 2021
227
One may seek freedom to fly, another an escape from trouble.

But to the suicidal person, a true freedom from life above the rubble.

I wish you a peaceful journey.
 
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Zinz

Zinz

Wizard
Apr 28, 2021
638
I hope you find peace.
 
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Kennish

Specialist
Aug 17, 2021
379
I hope you find peace โ˜ฎ๏ธ
 
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sickoffighting

Member
Apr 15, 2021
5
Please just think before u do anything cause there's no going back can't u do just one more day
 
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cambrai33

Traveller
Nov 3, 2021
385
Thinking of you both right now, the enormity of it has just hit me. Wishing you peace and love right now
 
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deeeeejay

Member
Nov 1, 2021
17
15 minutes before painkillers and first lot of propranolol ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป
 
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cambrai33

Traveller
Nov 3, 2021
385
15 minutes before painkillers and first lot of propranolol ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป
So taking Sn at about 9pm based on the guide

I will be here without fail if you need someone out here for anything. I hardly knew you deeeeejay but I will miss you
 
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Dead Meat

DOOMED
Oct 10, 2018
18,394
I wish you all the Luck in the world that you have a very pleasant and comfortable journey, may you have never-ending peace and tranquility :heart::hug::heart::hug:
 
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finalexit

Member
Jan 24, 2021
84
Did anyone see what happened in the chat? I was there for a bit the other day but had to go. Hope they're doing alright
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,004
I hope you had a safe and pleasant journey
 
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Zinz

Wizard
Apr 28, 2021
638
Did anyone see what happened in the chat? I was there for a bit the other day but had to go. Hope they're doing alright
They had their first glass and began vomiting, had a second glass and remained conscious with symptoms such as dizziness and blurred vision for around 40 minutes. Reported drinking a third glass and decided to go lay down. Hasn't been online since. I hope my report isn't against their wishes. Rest in peace regardless.
 
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blueclover_.

blueclover_.

Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
Oct 11, 2021
667
They had their first glass and began vomiting, had a second glass and remained conscious with symptoms such as dizziness and blurred vision for around 40 minutes. Reported drinking a third glass and decided to go lay down. Hasn't been online since. I hope my report isn't against their wishes. Rest in peace regardless.
RIP.
 

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