this was the shittiest year ever. I spent every day being suicidal haaaahaa.
How was your year?
How was your year?
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GreenLantern
John Stewart
- Nov 18, 2018
- 129
Bad. I spent half the year traveling and the hookers weren't even that good.
Sinbad
Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
- Nov 27, 2018
- 543
First-half ok second half in a nose dive direction
Deleted member 4288
So much pain...
- Dec 3, 2018
- 82
Bad. No day went without thinking of suicide.
But I semi-enjoyed the summer, because I replayed all my favorite video-games & played some new ones.
But this year still sucks.
LifeSick
Eat the rich or die!
- Sep 20, 2018
- 168
This was pretty much my experience as well, although the first half was only ok because i feel so much worse now, at the time it was pretty shitty.
CatLove56
Specialist
- Jun 30, 2018
- 309
spent 9 months being unemployed and considering suicide almost every day.
finally got a job at walmart and being busy helps the lie to myself that my life is worth it
Plankter
欠陥人
- Aug 14, 2018
- 174
About a third of it was amazing. The rest, fricking awful.
PS: In case you missed it, i sleep for about 8 hours everyday (Except on sundays when i sleep for 12-13 hours sometimes)It was a rollercoaster. I started with great grades in college, moved to dorms, ended up sleeping with guy in my classes, being dumped by him, dropping out of college, attempting overdose, mental hospital, starting meds again, being seriously suicidal, joining the same college again, attempting overdose again, mental hospital, not going to a single class, being suicidal, buying my rope, and now putting of suicide and having big plans for the new year.
gingerplum
Enlightened
- Nov 5, 2018
- 1,450
By far the worst year of my life. I spend my days in a haze of apathy, and most of my nights crying. My first thought when I wake up is usually, "make it stop, please, please, make it stop". I just don't want to do this anymore.
It's been the worst year of my life hands down lol! It's just been chaos and uncertainty. Complete meltdowns at least once a week.It's been shit like every year since 2014. New year, same crap.
Bread
Avoid if allergic to gluten
- Dec 1, 2018
- 80
This exactly. Waking up is the most horrible thing ever. There is about one second of oblivion and then you suddenly remember everything. It is an awful, horrible, sick feeling.
Bread
Avoid if allergic to gluten
- Dec 1, 2018
- 80
Every year is worst than the last, so unsurprisingly this was definitely the shittiest year yet. Oh, boy, I can't wait for next year! At the end of each year I can never imagine that things could get much worse, but they always manage to anyway. I'm just hoping that 2019 will be the year that I stop being a coward and finally ctb.
Xaphous
hikikomori
- Nov 11, 2018
- 550
Living like a 90 year old throughout my 20s almost now. How can I be happier in older years when I have lost all previous years? I can't. I used to have hope that the next upcoming year might be better but I realise it won't.
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 7,355
Same here, most of my year sucked and the only times that sucked less was playing video games and getting immersed in them.
Herbalpompano75
I loved her
- Dec 1, 2018
- 33
It started probably about 2012-13 for me but honestly Idk I forget it just feels like it been 50 years
You hit the nail on the head. Mornings are awful to me for this reason.
It's always been bad for me. It's just in 2014 my health deteriorated.
Fyrinne
Four of a Kind
- Aug 11, 2018
- 67
Herbalpompano75
I loved her
- Dec 1, 2018
- 33
It had its good moments only whenever I was alone, doing selfishly what I wanted to, and having money to do so. Those were the only good times. The other half was also spent just thinking ideation and thoughts of CTB.
All I want for Christmas is to CTB and not in a cry for help sense either.
Now isn't that something? :)
