2 out of 12. Tell me something you want to do in february

[𝑹𝒂𝒘 𝑷𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝑷𝒊𝒛𝒛𝒂]

I wish you a nice February

I'm feeling like crap right now so I'm typing this in my bed
I hope February treats me good. I've been getting very, very depressed lately, I even have some suicidal ideations...I feel so sad, I wish I knew what to do to make them disappear, they are like a cloud that chases me everywhere I go. I did a lot of nice things in January but it all seems for nothing right now, it's infuriating. I don't even know why I'm typing this post here, nothing will change how I feel, just time will dissipate these thoughts, I can't control them, and they control me completely.
I feel so fucking crazy.

But I'll push through and try my best.
I want to cook some more this month and try new recipes. If you have some you can tell me!
Wish me the best please. I'm scared.

It's like I turn into a different person sometimes. it scares me. It frustrates me. I feel like my mind becomes delusional, it wraps reality and everything begins to trigger me. I can feel my body becoming tense and tight, like an upcoming treat is in front of me. I can feel myself turning crazy.
And then, after I get worse and worse by the days and weeks, I suddenly begin to feel better, and fast, and it's like that episode never happened. Like a switch, light or dark.

 

[friva]

I want to get better at makeup this February :) My looks are a major reason why I wanted to ctb (very superficial I know, sorry) but after some changes in my life gave me more confidence I'm trying to do better for myself and recover from SI. I'm also feeling really low rn tbh despite having had a pretty good January and it does feel extremely demoralising, I hope we both feel better soon. My mood can shift really extremely and quickly too and it always leaves me feeling like the previous emotion was just a delusion until it flips again and again and again.

I don't have any specific recipes but, like, pasta in general is fun to make and eat, so. I had macaroni spaghetti recently and I think it restored my faith in humanity a little bit.

 

[JoysoftheEmptiness]

I wish you a nice February

I'm feeling like crap right now so I'm typing this in my bed
I hope February treats me good. I've been getting very, very depressed lately, I even have some suicidal ideations...I feel so sad, I wish I knew what to do to make them disappear, they are like a cloud that chases me everywhere I go. I did a lot of nice things in January but it all seems for nothing right now, it's infuriating. I don't even know why I'm typing this post here, nothing will change how I feel, just time will dissipate these thoughts, I can't control them, and they control me completely.
I feel so fucking crazy.

But I'll push through and try my best.
I want to cook some more this month and try new recipes. If you have some you can tell me!
Wish me the best please. I'm scared.

It's like I turn into a different person sometimes. it scares me. It frustrates me. I feel like my mind becomes delusional, it wraps reality and everything begins to trigger me. I can feel my body becoming tense and tight, like an upcoming treat is in front of me. I can feel myself turning crazy.
And then, after I get worse and worse by the days and weeks, I suddenly begin to feel better, and fast, and it's like that episode never happened. Like a switch, light or dark.

I'm here, and there's plenty other people how are going through the same crazy shit as you, guess we are all in a good place, we know what we are going through. My plans for February is for me to take a few days holiday in Newquay, Cornwall, hoping to fly down there, as its faster than taking a train. It will be the first time I've been away from home since losing my best friend, who was my ex-girlfriend last September, I miss her alot, and keep crying. Wishing you the best, and don't be scared x

I want to get better at makeup this February :) My looks are a major reason why I wanted to ctb (very superficial I know, sorry) but after some changes in my life gave me more confidence I'm trying to do better for myself and recover from SI. I'm also feeling really low rn tbh despite having had a pretty good January and it does feel extremely demoralising, I hope we both feel better soon. My mood can shift really extremely and quickly too and it always leaves me feeling like the previous emotion was just a delusion until it flips again and again and again.

I don't have any specific recipes but, like, pasta in general is fun to make and eat, so. I had macaroni spaghetti recently and I think it restored my faith in humanity a little bit.

Hoping you recover from si better than me, I'm struggling, ended up in hospital after the crisis team called the paramedics out for me. I was a total mess.

 

[victorisunlucky]

I started sitting next to this girl i think is very attractive in my vector calc class. My February goal is to try and get to know her :3. All of my previous relationships have been initiated by the other party, so this is a first for me and im kinda scared.

 

[Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚]

I wish you a nice February

I'm feeling like crap right now so I'm typing this in my bed
I hope February treats me good. I've been getting very, very depressed lately, I even have some suicidal ideations...I feel so sad, I wish I knew what to do to make them disappear, they are like a cloud that chases me everywhere I go. I did a lot of nice things in January but it all seems for nothing right now, it's infuriating. I don't even know why I'm typing this post here, nothing will change how I feel, just time will dissipate these thoughts, I can't control them, and they control me completely.
I feel so fucking crazy.

But I'll push through and try my best.
I want to cook some more this month and try new recipes. If you have some you can tell me!
Wish me the best please. I'm scared.

It's like I turn into a different person sometimes. it scares me. It frustrates me. I feel like my mind becomes delusional, it wraps reality and everything begins to trigger me. I can feel my body becoming tense and tight, like an upcoming treat is in front of me. I can feel myself turning crazy.
And then, after I get worse and worse by the days and weeks, I suddenly begin to feel better, and fast, and it's like that episode never happened. Like a switch, light or dark.

Hmnn

Honestly I just wanna improve in my subjects and keep a clean space and continue my health journey!

 

[Kimlett]

What you said really resonates with me. One day I'm fine and the next I want to die so bad. That cloud eventually dissipates, and then it comes back again, and then it goes away again... It's so tiring.

This February I want to keep going with my artistic projects and I'll start my studies in dietetics. But mostly I just want it to pass quickly. Time feels too slow for me.

 

[AuroraB]

go to the nearby mountains and snow shoe.

 

[Aloneandinpain]

Go on my first ever date, same as every month this century

 

[NitrogenAfternoon]

I want to finally watch Sonic 3. I love Sonic, i love the entire series, but you all know how it gets. You don't have the energy to even do anything you love, and I just have been so hurt lately. But I really want to watch the movie during a matinee sometime this month. Maybe even this week.

I am really worried about Valentine's Day. It's a silly date, i hate it, but I've been getting over a fall out and I dread that day this year. I don't want to get my hopes up that she will reach out to me anymore either. I just want to be at peace with my loneliness this month, and try to get through it as best I can.

 

[iji]

1. have wellbeing/health
2. get a job, i've been sending my CV, reaching out to people asking for opportunities to no return or being rejected
3. continuous learning and start a project for portfolio and maybe a source of income