15 more minutes..

[nena21]

Also 15 seconds of hanging and I will all be okay again. Everything will be like it should have been. I finally have no choice. I believe in you guys. If i can do it you can. Everything will be fine again. I know its worth it..

 

[Deleted member 847]

Do you mind If I ask you why do you want to ctb?

 

[nena21]

because i always wanted to and had like too many attempts to count. also partial didnt work for shit. dumb partial. You failed yourself with it. fuck partial.

 

[Deleted member 847]

because i always wanted to and had like too many attempts to count. also partial didnt work for shit. dumb partial. You failed yourself with it. fuck partial.

For real,
What really is your pain?
Do you vomit every day and feel second degree burns on your back
or is it just "depression/being tired, unsatisfied with life"

I've had the second problem, and I was for some time unhealthily obsessed with the idea of nonexisting and being isolated
from the noise of life (Waking up in the morning, having to brush my fucking teeth, going to school, all of that shit) and civilization, but
I did some more thinking and I realized I still have 50+ fucking years before I die, and there's no need to rush things
unless I'm being tormented by schizophrenia, dementia, chronic physical pain and you know other real problems that
can't really be solved with therapy

This forum is pro-choice, and so am I
but I'll never be pro-death (life is always without value and let's all just kill ourselves for stupid reasons)

Life sometimes does have value. And death doesn't give you peace, because peace is a feeling, and death has no feelings

 

[nena21]

For real,
What really is your pain?
Do you vomit every day and feel second degree burns on your back
or is it just "depression/being tired, unsatisfied with life"

I've had the second problem, and I was for some time unhealthily obsessed with the idea of nonexisting and being isolated
from the noise of life (Waking up in the morning, having to brush my fucking teeth, going to school, all of that shit) and civilization, but
I did some more thinking and I realized I still have 50+ fucking years before I die, and there's no need to rush things
unless I'm being tormented by schizophrenia, dementia, chronic physical pain and you know other real problems that
can't really be solved with therapy

This forum is pro-choice, and so am I
but I'll never be pro-death (life is always without value and let's all just kill ourselves for stupid reasons)

Life sometimes does have value. And death doesn't give you peace, because peace is a feeling, and death has no feelings

hm no. You talk stupid. I see how you got unbanned. Hard to take your shit serious...

 

[Deleted member 847]

hm no. You talk stupid. I see how you got unbanned. Hard to take your shit serious...

I'm trying to put some reason into your brain.
You don't want to die, you want peace, right? Death = peace, it doesnt equal green leprachauns in your immagination, did i get that one right?
If you stay alive and you work towards that goal, maybe your job sucks you want more money, or whatever your problem is,
then your chances of achieving "peace" will increase as you start investing in yourself
if you just put your head in the noose, you won't get any peace, not the peace that you're visualizing in your mind anyway
you'll feel dizzy for 10 seconds and then you'll be dead for eternity
how about you live for 1 more year, then if you decide your life is still shit then you can kill yourself, okay?
just give it one year
you have eternity to be dead,
and you'll die one day anyway, so why rush it
you'll get your "death" that you want so badly for "christmas", it doesn't have to be tomorrow...

anyway it's your body, and it's your choice at the end of the day
just a friendly advice

 

[nena21]

I'm trying to put some reason into your brain.
You don't want to die, you want peace, right? Death = peace, it doesnt equal green leprachauns in your immagination, did i get that one right?
If you stay alive and you work towards that goal, maybe your job sucks you want more money, or whatever your problem is,
then your chances of achieving "peace" will increase as you start investing in yourself
if you just put your head in the noose, you won't get any peace, not the peace that you're visualizing in your mind anyway
you'll feel dizzy for 10 seconds and then you'll be dead for eternity
how about you live for 1 more year, then if you decide your life is still shit then you can kill yourself, okay?
just give it one year
you have eternity to be dead,
and you'll die one day anyway, so why rush it
you'll get your "death" that you want so badly for "christmas", it doesn't have to be tomorrow...

anyway it's your body, and it's your choice at the end of the day
just a friendly advice

funny how you have a megathread yet you belong to reddit suicidewatch. you really wanna piss me off in my last minutes...

 

[Deleted member 847]

funny how you have a megathread yet you belong to reddit suicidewatch. you really wanna piss me off in my last minutes...

Okay, if you've already made up your mind.
But I don't think you'll defeat survival instinct.
I was in the same position as you, and guess what, the only reason why It happened to me it was because
I slipped on the chair as I was kneeling, and I couldn't turn back anymore
I hanged myself because I wont the fucking lottery, not because I was brave

You do what you want to do, but I don't think it's worth if you ask me

My megathread is for people that have dementia and second degree burns

 

[Deleted member 847]

Are you still here?
If yes, how was it?
Did the dizzy feeling change your mind?

If he won, then you don't have an unsolvable problem
If I was burning alive a dizzy feeling wouldn't scare me for too long

If not,
I hope you've found your peace

 

[TrynaChingMyself]

This was sad to read. Nobody should have to argue/justify their suicide moments before they're going to do it.

If you're gone, R.I.P nena21. Hope you're at peace.

 

[OceanBlue]

For real,
What really is your pain?
Do you vomit every day and feel second degree burns on your back
or is it just "depression/being tired, unsatisfied with life"

I've had the second problem, and I was for some time unhealthily obsessed with the idea of nonexisting and being isolated
from the noise of life (Waking up in the morning, having to brush my fucking teeth, going to school, all of that shit) and civilization, but
I did some more thinking and I realized I still have 50+ fucking years before I die, and there's no need to rush things
unless I'm being tormented by schizophrenia, dementia, chronic physical pain and you know other real problems that
can't really be solved with therapy

This forum is pro-choice, and so am I
but I'll never be pro-death (life is always without value and let's all just kill ourselves for stupid reasons)

Life sometimes does have value. And death doesn't give you peace, because peace is a feeling, and death has no feelings

If you want to cling on some hope, like: "I still have 50+ fucking years before I die, and there's no need to rush things" (when it is not a guarantee and life can always put you in a situation where you can't leave anymore on your own terms), then that's up to you, but you have no right to come on this forum and call any reason to ctb 'stupid' and treat people this way, nothing about your posts were 'friendly'.

 

[FuneralCry]

After all, there is no such thing as a 'stupid' reason to leave this world, we all have the right to exit this world at a time of our own choosing and nobody needs to justify their reasons for leaving anyway. Suicide does not even need a reason, it is a personal choice. I think that no one here needs to be invalidated by a stranger who knows nothing about their situation. To me it is disrespectful to do that.

I'm sorry that it came to this point for you, OP. I can imagine that it must have been awful to go through so many failed attempts. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.