Venting 14 Days Since The Accident

[AWeepingWidower]

I have found myself praying to the universe and the Gods that we spoke to in our household, every night to take me as well. This feeling is like wanting to go home but realizing that there is no home anywhere anymore and the world doesn't make sense without them. Perhaps I am a fool. I've been trying to be open to spirituality to try to experience things as others say that they have. I assume this is desperation.

CTB with [redacted] and [redacted] is what I'm considering; but honestly I don't know when would be good. Do I wait. Do I hurry. Nothing makes sense anymore. Like I'm working through a fog.