Venting 10 days left for me

[Hiraeth Grimoire]

This is just a vent post because my few friends already know what's coming soon, so I figured I would share it here with others who are going through a similar time.

I am going to die in ten days by sodium nitrite. It is not that I am currently suffering, but that I have suffered in the past, and inevitably know I will more by living on.

This world is a terrible place. It pains me to know the horrors beyond my control. I want none of this beautiful hell. I hope all of it is peacefully returned to nothingness.

And I see no utility in working for decades only to end up old and decrepit, suffering all the while. It just seems better to leave before more damage has been done.

I am scared to die, because I have never truly lived, and I would never want to, knowing what this world has to offer. I long for something more. Pure freedom, beyond life.

Facing SI will be rough, as I have no clue what is to come in the afterlife. The thought of death being inevitable I find somewhat soothing. I just want sleep forevermore.

Hopefully all is well fellow sufferers.
Thank you for reading.

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[Euthanza]

I wish you the best 10 days of your time ending with peace

 

[1000winds]

here's to an amazing 10 days

 

[Eternal Soul]

You are courage, I wish I had the bravery you have.

 

[Astral Storm]

I am deeply troubled by the horrors of existence and the limitless suffering in this place too. I am truly glad for you. I hope you will find peace and good luck!

 

[Hope:-)]

Lots of love to you xx

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable, this world really is so horrifying and I also want the peace that only death can bring, more than anything. I strongly believe that when we die, we return to the same nothingness where we were at before we were born where time passed and yet we were not aware of anything. I hope that you find freedom from what you are going through. I wish you the best.

 

[bmw8]

This is just a vent post because my few friends already know what's coming soon, so I figured I would share it here with others who are going through a similar time.

I am going to die in ten days by sodium nitrite. It is not that I am currently suffering, but that I have suffered in the past, and inevitably know I will more by living on.

This world is a terrible place. It pains me to know the horrors beyond my control. I want none of this beautiful hell. I hope all of it is peacefully returned to nothingness.

And I see no utility in working for decades only to end up old and decrepit, suffering all the while. It just seems better to leave before more damage has been done.

I am scared to die, because I have never truly lived, and I would never want to, knowing what this world has to offer. I long for something more. Pure freedom, beyond life.

Facing SI will be rough, as I have no clue what is to come in the afterlife. The thought of death being inevitable I find somewhat soothing. I just want sleep forevermore.

Hopefully all is well fellow sufferers.
Thank you for reading.

I hope you a peaceful journey