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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,384
Hey all

There's an update::
The SN was out for delivery and I have been lucky enough that delivery boy came when my parents were asleep.

My phone rang and it displayed the delivery guy from the courier on the TrueCaller app.

He said that he's arrived outside.

I said, okay brother I'm coming to take delivery. (In case you are wondering, we Indians calls every other guy brother as respect)

My elder brother noticed that I have got a call and he enquired what is it. I said, courier. He was curious what's inside the courier. I didn't answer him.

I rushed to the spot where delivery boy was. I quickly took the delivery from him.

I arrived back home. I noticed my father had woken up due to the ring of the phone so he was asking my brother, what is it, he said there's some courier of mine. He exclaimed, 'Courier?!'

I quickly rushed to my room ignoring my father and brother. They noticed that I'm going to the room, so they returned to their respective rooms.
I quickly threw the box to a place where my father will less likely find it unless it is a really bad luck.

I rushed to the kitchen to get the knife so I could open the box.

Luckily enough, everybody was in their room.

I got the knife to my room and cut open the box and I got my 2 SN boxes😍 they are 97% pure and have an expiry date of 2031.

So that tells us that it has a shelf life of 6 years from the date of manufacturing.

Now, I had to dispose that cardboard box which contained these 2 boxes. I quickly opened the gate of my house and sneaked out and disposed that box in the nearest dustbin.
That box had my name, SN extra pure written along with the invoice. So, I couldn't risk that once I'm gone police could get to know where I bought this from. As it'd compromise the seller for other SN customers.

I came back to my room. I have now hidden SN between my pillows. My pillow is memory foam so unless one picks up the pillow, they'll not come to know about the SN boxes.

Pheewwwwwwww...


Mission SN delivery done βœ…

Second part of the movie is yet to begin.

I have to get an anti emetic. Write my suicide letter. Schedule some emails.
Skip my dinner tonight by saying that I'm feeling heavy due to the heavy lunch.

Find a place where i can hide the SN boxes after I have used them so the police doesn't gets to see the boxes.

Have two cups ready. I have the measuring cup with me. So, i can measure water quantity but I don't have a kitchen scale to weigh 35gm of SN (I'm 100kgs so 35gms is needed for my weight).

One mistake and it'll foil the plan.

There's no room for any mistake.

I have to time the drink in such a way that my parents are asleep by that time. And they don't come in my room in middle of all of it.

I'll be sleeping in my room. I usually sleep in their room.

I'll also have to format my phones so that police can't find anything in my phones


I'll try to keep u all updated about my status. I don't know if I can, but I'll try.


See ya all...


Looking forward to catch the bus soon.


The warrior could be finally achieving his goal if all goes well.
I hope and wish SN does its job within an hour. So that there's no scope for any medical help.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,405
Congratulations. Now you have enough SN for 40 people to catch and ride the bus :ahhha:
In all seriousness, im happy for you. My SN came with 4 years expiry date/retest date, and mine was also 97% pure. If your SN has a CoA ( certificate of analysis ) number you can check it on the manucacturer's website. Your purity might be higher than 97%. When i checked mine, it was actually 98% pure.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,384
Congratulations. Now you have enough SN for 40 people to catch and ride the bus :ahhha:
In all seriousness, im happy for you. My SN came with 4 years expiry date/retest date, and mine was also 97% pure. If your SN has a CoA ( certificate of analysis ) number you can check it on the manucacturer's website. Your purity might be higher than 97%. When i checked mine, it was actually 98% pure.
Thank you 😁 haha you are right. I have enough SN to take lot many people with me in the bus. πŸ˜‚
Wow 98% pure. I didn't get the certificate of analysis though. May be it was in the box. I don't know.
Let's hope it's potent enough
 
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3rdworldsadness

3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
395
So lucky!! And I wish that everything goes smoothly and as you wanted!!! I'm forward to your updates:))
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,653
I hope you find peace. Good luck! :heart:

Will you attempt now/tonight?
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,384
So lucky!! And I wish that everything goes smoothly and as you wanted!!! I'm forward to your updates:))
Thank you πŸ₯°
I hope so, everything goes as per the plan from start to end.
I'll keep you all posted to the best i can
 
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euphric

euphric

no more hold on till may next year.
Sep 10, 2026
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So happy for you, brother! Wishing for your success! Peace
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,384
I hope you find peace. Good luck! :heart:

Will you attempt now/tonight?
Thank you ❀️
I am thinking of postponing the plan to atleast tomorrow. Actually, the SN was supposed to reach me tomorrow but it got delivered early. Haha. So i was not mentally prepared for today.
Though it's a good thing that it got delivered today and I was able to sneak it in safely.
I'll have to think of a hiding place where any one in my family doesn't looks. So, I could hide it for a day or may be few weeks I don't know if i can hide it for weeks as the boxes are not small enough to hide just anywhere.
My preference is to delay but if I can't I'll have to do it tonight or asap. Let's see.
Actually every decision i make is going to be an important factor, as one miss and it'll thwart my ctb plan for years.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Thank you ❀️
I am thinking of postponing the plan to atleast tomorrow. Actually, the SN was supposed to reach me tomorrow but it got delivered early. Haha. So i was not mentally prepared for today.
Though it's a good thing that it got delivered today and I was able to sneak it in safely.
I'll have to think of a hiding place where any one in my family doesn't looks. So, I could hide it for a day or may be few weeks I don't know if i can hide it for weeks as the boxes are not small enough to hide just anywhere.
My preference is to delay but if I can't I'll have to do it tonight or asap. Let's see.
Actually every decision i make is going to be an important factor, as one miss and it'll thwart my ctb plan for years.
It's so sad to see you go. I hope everything goes well for you and nobody finds the SN.
I wish you all the best and I hope you find peace and relief from all suffering and pain. πŸ«‚ :heart:
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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Oh wow. Congrats. I hope you can postpone it & wait until you feel truly ready, but it is what it is. I'm glad you feel relieved now. You must think of something to tell them though if they ask what was delivered!
 
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schmebyulok

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Sep 10, 2026
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congrats man. how were you able to get SN? do you have any clues/hints? idk if you remember me, but you commented on a post of mine here. i'm from the philippines and not india, but the way you got SN might be the same or at least similar for me since we're from the same continent and are both from 3rd world countries.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,405
Thank you 😁 haha you are right. I have enough SN to take lot many people with me in the bus. πŸ˜‚
Wow 98% pure. I didn't get the certificate of analysis though. May be it was in the box. I don't know.
Let's hope it's potent enough
I forgot to tell you, 35g of SN would be too much for you. I just the table of weight/SN grams and if you weigh 100kg , 25g of SN would be enough for you. 35g is for people who are around 170 Kg. Also it was very considerate of you to hide all the details from where you bought it, not to get the sellers in legal trouble. I also did that to my papers and invoices when i bought my SN last year.
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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It's so sad to see you go. I hope everything goes well for you and nobody finds the SN.
I wish you all the best and I hope you find peace and relief from all suffering and pain. πŸ«‚ :heart:
So sweet of you ❀️πŸ₯°
Thanks a lot. I have managed to hide SN in an unexpected place where ppl are less likely to look. So, that i think buys me some more time to chill and enjoy lifeπŸ˜‚πŸ€žπŸ˜ and to be with you all
 
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DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

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Here's the table in case you need it, sorry there's no kg on it πŸ™ƒ.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,384
Oh wow. Congrats. I hope you can postpone it & wait until you feel truly ready, but it is what it is. I'm glad you feel relieved now. You must think of something to tell them though if they ask what was delivered!
Thank you so much πŸ₯°
I have hidden it at an unexpected place so I hope that can buy me the extra time 😁
I have no urgency right now to catch the bus. The SN is valid for 6 years😍😍😍
Yes, i feel so much relieved right now. First phase worked as per the plan.
True . I'm wondering what can I say to them. My brother usually does a lot of online shopping. As I don't need anything, I don't buy anything at all, so my couriers never comeπŸ˜‚ so, that would make them wonder even more to know what I ordered. I'm thinking of purchasing a headphone, just to say that I have bought that. As I have nothing new that I can disguise as the delivered courier.
congrats man. how were you able to get SN? do you have any clues/hints? idk if you remember me, but you commented on a post of mine here. i'm from the philippines and not india, but the way you got SN might be the same or at least similar for me since we're from the same continent and are both from 3rd world countries.
Thank you πŸ₯° and yes I do remember youπŸ€—
Don't worry, I don't gatekeep. Though as you are in Philippines and not in India, i don't think that site will let you buy it. Their KYC check goes to Indian digilocker. And as you have no records in Indian digilocker, you would not be able to purchase it. Though, pm me, let's discuss about it.
I forgot to tell you, 35g of SN would be too much for you. I just the table of weight/SN grams and if you weigh 100kg , 25g of SN would be enough for you. 35g is for people who are around 170 Kg. Also it was very considerate of you to hide all the details from where you bought it, not to get the sellers in legal trouble. I also did that to my papers and invoices when i bought my SN last year.
Ohhh... Thanks for correcting me.. i would have done blunder otherwise. And a lot of SN would cause vomiting. My body intelligence is extra high because I have tried to throw some much garbage inside me in order to attempt CTB, so it'll throw up anything that it suspects as toxin. I had rum few weeks back, and after the second intake, my body made me vomit all.
Yeah, those kind sellers delivered the thing I had been searching for years, a potent poison. So, i have to take care of them as well😁🀞 that's a good decision that you also saved them from getting into trouble.
I just have to pray that the SN that I have hidden, does not gets found. I have kept it at the most unexpected place possible. But my father's intuition 😩 leads him to whatever I hide. I also find whatever he hides. I don't know what's this father son mind connectionπŸ˜‚
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Here's the table in case you need it, sorry there's no kg on it πŸ™ƒ.
Thanks, it so useful. I'll convert lb into kg. Not a problem. Another lazy thing i can do is, crop SN from this image and send this to AI and ask it to tell me.
 
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