CountingSeconds
Trying
- Mar 1, 2024
- 30
It's ok to be nervous. It's ok to have second thoughts. It's ok to experience survival instinct. It's ok to post a goodbye thread and come back to say you didn't go through with it. It's ok to try, and for a million reasons "fail". It's ok to think about others.
Just because I no longer want to live, it doesn't mean that I want to die. I have made peace with what comes after death (for me, nothingness), but I'm still afraid of failing. And admitting to failing.
I am in so much emotional pain. Every single day I feel closer to ending my suffering but at the same time I feel even further away. It's a mental paradox that I can't escape.
I might just be talking to myself. I just need to say it. One less thing for my brain to trick me with. If anyone else struggles with these thoughts: it's ok.
Just because I no longer want to live, it doesn't mean that I want to die. I have made peace with what comes after death (for me, nothingness), but I'm still afraid of failing. And admitting to failing.
I am in so much emotional pain. Every single day I feel closer to ending my suffering but at the same time I feel even further away. It's a mental paradox that I can't escape.
I might just be talking to myself. I just need to say it. One less thing for my brain to trick me with. If anyone else struggles with these thoughts: it's ok.
