Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚
Student
- Oct 8, 2024
- 188
Why do I feel life is about to get a whole lot worse?
It just came to me as I wrapped gifts for my family, and I cried the whole time.
Christmas was supposed to be a day I was happy for once, but it got ruined and tainted so easily.
I think this time the thought of the only constant thing in my life being it's ups and downs really got to me.
Yet everything around me eggs me to go on, like I'm not ready to actually go yet. I hate that.
I tested my rope with my weight yesterday and it is strong enough.
I have everything I need to destroy myself.
And this was supposed to be Christmas…
I feel so ruined by the world.
All I do is cry.
Yet I still create.
But it doesn't change anything.
Xxx
It just came to me as I wrapped gifts for my family, and I cried the whole time.
Christmas was supposed to be a day I was happy for once, but it got ruined and tainted so easily.
I think this time the thought of the only constant thing in my life being it's ups and downs really got to me.
Yet everything around me eggs me to go on, like I'm not ready to actually go yet. I hate that.
I tested my rope with my weight yesterday and it is strong enough.
I have everything I need to destroy myself.
And this was supposed to be Christmas…
I feel so ruined by the world.
All I do is cry.
Yet I still create.
But it doesn't change anything.
Xxx
