Chuuya-Chan β. πΛ
Student
- Oct 8, 2024
- 188
I took a long walk this morning, I couldn't help but be frustrated the entire time.
but I'll try to stay a bit positive, went one last round of Christmas shopping and ended up finding a really cute outfit
Though, I definitely felt more down this evening and when I was wrapping the gifts I literally just cried the whole timeβ¦
I don't think it's even about one particular thing, but honestly one thing I thought of is that I honestly don't understand how anyone can like or love me, I feel like I've become the worst version of myself this year.
Sadder, less motivated, and feel like I generally just lost my spark, I'm so tired of having to build shit up all over again, I never get anywhere. One step forward and five steps back.
I'm honestly so done with myself, life's lost its spark too this year.
And honestly everytime I hear any sentiments about keep going and everything will be fine I just want to scream. I really just want to scream.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Xxx
but I'll try to stay a bit positive, went one last round of Christmas shopping and ended up finding a really cute outfit
Though, I definitely felt more down this evening and when I was wrapping the gifts I literally just cried the whole timeβ¦
I don't think it's even about one particular thing, but honestly one thing I thought of is that I honestly don't understand how anyone can like or love me, I feel like I've become the worst version of myself this year.
Sadder, less motivated, and feel like I generally just lost my spark, I'm so tired of having to build shit up all over again, I never get anywhere. One step forward and five steps back.
I'm honestly so done with myself, life's lost its spark too this year.
And honestly everytime I hear any sentiments about keep going and everything will be fine I just want to scream. I really just want to scream.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Xxx
