You ever go throughout your day, then suddenly remember you're on borrowed time

[CatLove56]

I guess we all are but I mean ending it sooner rather than "naturally". I keep typing and retyping what I want to say so I'll just say life sucks and can't rely on anyone. I get so tired of wage slaving and it not being enough and for now I deal with it and my stupid family but I just wonder when I will get tired of this. The worlds gone to shit and I just stay out of morbid curiously. I think if I lose my job (not great to begin with) and be homeless is what we will finally do me in. Without family to support me or roommates I guess I either have to step up or die I guess. I do the absolute minimum because I shouldn't even be here.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yup, I'm constantly thinking I'm gonna die but in my case, before I reach my 40s probably. (I'm 32 now)

 

[Umbrellaterm]

Every sane being understands life is not worth it.

 

[CatLove56]

Yup, I'm constantly thinking I'm gonna die but in my case, before I reach my 40s probably. (I'm 32 now)

I'm 24 I don't see myself going past 30 you're pretty strong

 

[xLosthopex]

Yeah. Even though I'm decided about ctb and my life is 99% suffering, sometimes if I'm doing something I enjoy or just doing normal every day things I'll remember that I will be ctb soon and it feels kinda strange

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm 24 I don't see myself going past 30 you're pretty strong

I've been suicidal since I'm 12 but my 20s were really nice (lots of drugs, sex, some money, etc). Then, my 30s came and I gained a lot of weight, got some health and mental health issues and so on. For that reason, I wanna CTB asap but don't have the guts to do so lol

 

[KleinerWolf]

No but I will soon probably...
Have up to approximate a year left,
Unless I change my mind.

 

[All washed up]

I've been suicidal since I'm 12 but my 20s were really nice (lots of drugs, sex, some money, etc). Then, my 30s came and I gained a lot of weight, got some health and mental health issues and so on. For that reason, I wanna CTB asap but don't have the guts to do so lol

Life really is a rollercoaster for me teens ok, 20s and 30s pretty good 40s the best, 50s started off okay but 55 now and a succession of errors and coronavirus have really messed me up hence ctb on my mind