yesterday was the worst..

[finish.me]

i woke up with my dad yelling at me and i ended up just locking my bedroom door and he stood outside of it as an intimidation thing i guess and after like an hour or two he finally fucked off. then i was alone in my house and no one wanted to talk to me, my boyfriend didnt even text me..it made me feel, really really alone and i was supposed to start restricting yesterday but i fucking couldn't because of how fucking empty i felt. so i binged and it made me feel worse, even more disgusting and lame than i was already feeling. i got really drunk because of how shit i felt and then just. fucking, thought about ways to die. thats literallly all i did yesterday. nothing of purpose. nothing substantial

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering. Existence really is a nightmare. I wish you well.

 

[randomidiot]

Sorry about your shitty day. I spend so many days wasting all of my time doing nothing and at night I think about how fucking pathetic I am that I managed to not do anything I wanted to do or anything at all really. It makes me feel a little better knowing that none of this shit is gonna matter when I'm dead.

 

[Celerity]

It sounds like you're living in a really toxic environment there. My dad sounds a lot like yours. I thank my lucky stars that he has finally mellowed to an extent in old age.

Is there any way for you to move out of there?

 

[finish.me]

It sounds like you're living in a really toxic environment there. My dad sounds a lot like yours. I thank my lucky stars that he has finally mellowed to an extent in old age.

Is there any way for you to move out of there?

im supposed to leave soon and move in with my bf but im having second thoughts, i kind of just want to ctb because i dont want to meet him in the state im in lol

 

[Celerity]

im supposed to leave soon and move in with my bf but im having second thoughts, i kind of just want to ctb because i dont want to meet him in the state im in lol

I think you should go. What do you actually have to lose against literal death?