would like someone to talk to who is on the edge yet desperately clinging for life

[nembutal]

i feel similarly to what i described in the title, i feel as though i have exhausted all of my options and want to go asap, yet fear festers rampantly in my heart as to whether things may change in the future. i am looking for someone to talk to who feels the same, who is still fighting for their life. for personal context i am 20, gender nonconforming and living in the nyc area. let me know if you would like some companionship. i will force no ideologies about recovery or pro-life down your throat.

 

[Avalanche81]

I fought for a long time until I had a failed attempt of my own life. Things got better afterwards.

Does it still cross my mind to try again? For sure but not as strong of a feeling.

 

[SunnysSunset]

I'm not very good at talking to people, so I don't think I would be good for companionship, but I just want to say that I same way. It's exhausting constantly going back and forth between two possibilities. This probably doesn't mean much but I really do hope you manage to find peace. Also I love your Aiko pfp.

 

[MitakaAsa]

Woah, we have a lot in common. I'm also 20, gnc, have an anime pfp (lol), and feel the same way you do. Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed because of how quickly I ping pong back and forth between suicidal ideation and a desire to keep sticking it out in the case that things somehow start turning around.

 

[fell]

I also feel the same I have tried so much, I feel so exhausted and hopeless. But there's a little part of me holding on wanting to try, but it feels so overwhelming and I break down when trying to make any progress. I'm happy to chat

 

[hungry_ghost]

Despite my hopelessness about my own future, I always feel hopeful for people who are young like you.

If you want to cling to life, find a reason.

You do have a lot of time to turn things around.

I suppose it's just a matter of finding the initiative within to do so.

I hope you find someone who can brighten your life a little, though.

 

[Sadgirldaisy]

I hope you keep finding reasons to cling to life if there's still a part of you that wants to fight.

 

[Againstthewind]

My inbox is always open if you need someone to talk to