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reb

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Apr 24, 2025
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or should i stay around until after xmas just to make my family happy idk
 
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quietpill

quietpill

I get so jealous of euthanized dogs.
Nov 27, 2024
62
CTB is always selfish and will never take into account your impact on life around you, because your pain supercedes it, so do as you will when you will. This is not a critique, just saying that it simply does not matter.
 
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avstin

avstin

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Aug 18, 2023
5
honestly, people treat someone's death, ESPECIALLY before the holidays, as some extra tragedy. yes, maybe it would be seen as a little less selfish to wait, but as said before, it will never not be completely selfless as well. maybe trying to spend this one last Christmas with your family can at least serve as an attempt to make that one last relatively good memory for everyone around and yourself:] take care tho
 
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instormdrains

instormdrains

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Oct 29, 2025
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If youve been depressed for a very long time you might as well wait a couple more days after Christmas Your family will be really happy to spend time with you and Im sure you might enjoy it too.
 
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Dawnfang11

Dawnfang11

Fate calls to us all
Dec 21, 2025
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Personally, that is what Im doing, but I feel like it ultimately doesnt matter. The people who will be heartbroken over it will be heartbroken no matter when you do it. Ig its up to you to decide whether you can stomach a few more days or not.
 
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nintendo64

nintendo64

mr. kill myself
Dec 19, 2025
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The decision is ultimately up to you. If you feel like you want to stick around a little longer, then go ahead. Spend one last Christmas with your family. If you feel like the pain is too unbearable to wait, that's okay too. I wish you well.
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
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If u ctb on Xmas thn thy wll associ8 Xmas wth ur deth fr th/ rst of thr lves

Slf undrstnd tht suicde r8tes r highr arnd Xmas & NY fr reasn bt if u hve th/ choic t/ prevnt tht xtra associatn & allw thm t/ fnd sme jy in Xmas in th/ futre thn tht mght b smethng u cn gve thm
 
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Exhausted546

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Dec 1, 2025
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or should i stay around until after xmas just to make my family happy idk
My family deserves me to CTB before Christmas honestly. They're one of the main cause of my suffering this past decade.
They've been quite selfish

It's time for me to be selfish
 
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braintorture

braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
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I might do it tomorrow or on the 25th or before the end of the week too. See you in heaven
 
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reb

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Apr 24, 2025
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Nvm guys im sick of staying alive just for others fuk them
 
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cme-dme

cme-dme

wants to sleep forever
Feb 1, 2025
517
Yes but suicide is always selfish. Suicide on xmas is just even more selfish (unless your death would literally effect nobody but that's probably not you even if your brain says it is). If possible I'd try to avoid it.
 
.vanilla

.vanilla

жить тяжело и не уютно, зато уютно умирать.
Aug 19, 2025
3
I like your choice of pfps :))
 
braintorture

braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
123
I'm trying to make it work but it's pretty painful so I'm wondering what alcohol to take to numb the pain for alcohol connoisseurs when I do it
 
Dawnfang11

Dawnfang11

Fate calls to us all
Dec 21, 2025
14
I'm trying to make it work but it's pretty painful so I'm wondering what alcohol to take to numb the pain for alcohol connoisseurs when I do it
As a chronic drinker, I can safely say it doesn't matter what you drink. All strong alcohol have the same effect on you. I'd advise against beer, wine, and that sort of thing because its more likely to make you sick, imo, especially if you dont drink often. Stick to spirits with a chaser, and choose whichever one is tastier to you. Something like rum or whiskey with a bit of cola is a classic.
 
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MyLifeisHell

MyLifeisHell

I'm in hell
Jul 23, 2022
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You should ideally aim for a two-week space at least between the day you choose to die and significant days.
 
bed

bed

CTBed
Aug 24, 2019
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If u ctb on Xmas thn thy wll associ8 Xmas wth ur deth fr th/ rst of thr lves

Slf undrstnd tht suicde r8tes r highr arnd Xmas & NY fr reasn bt if u hve th/ choic t/ prevnt tht xtra associatn & allw thm t/ fnd sme jy in Xmas in th/ futre thn tht mght b smethng u cn gve thm

You should ideally aim for a two-week space at least between the day you choose to die and significant days.
I've read many posts in the bereavement subreddit and the one that always sticks with me is someone who killed themself sometime in the summer and the family still associated xmas with their passing and never could celebrate the holidays again because of it. there are quite a lot of similar posts on their like that one and it made me think that it doesn't really matter when/if you go through with it because major holidays will always remind them of you.
personally though i think it's definitely worse to do it on a major holiday but it was really eye opening for me reading posts like that.

or should i stay around until after xmas just to make my family happy idk
if you have to ask this question i think it's better to stick around because it really sounds like you're unsure about ctb and also no one can decide this for you. the holidays are a terrible time for a lot of us and maybe you'll have a different perspective once they're over.
 
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Realog11

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Dec 4, 2025
42
If my sn comes this week then I will ctb on the same day as Christmas
 
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MyLifeisHell

MyLifeisHell

I'm in hell
Jul 23, 2022
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I've read many posts in the bereavement subreddit and the one that always sticks with me is someone who killed themself sometime in the summer and the family still associated xmas with their passing and never could celebrate the holidays again because of it. there are quite a lot of similar posts on their like that one and it made me think that it doesn't really matter when/if you go through with it because major holidays will always remind them of you.
personally though i think it's definitely worse to do it on a major holiday but it was really eye opening for me reading posts like that.
It's a matter of degree.

Of course your absence will always be felt. But suicide tends to send the message whether we intend it or not "you weren't worth it". And there are things that will rub that in harder.
 
madwoman

madwoman

what a shame she went mad
May 7, 2025
271
I decided to wait bc I didn't want to ruin anyone's christmas and not only bc of losing me, but also just the fact of having to deal with my death and the aftermath of it all would add on to the stress. It is hard waiting for the perfect time and really it would be a lot and sad anytime but yeah felt it best for me to wait.
 
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grungy自殺

grungy自殺

Unloveable
Jan 9, 2024
159
Really depends on your circumstance

I mean if you're like me, a doomer

I would certainly put meaningful symbolic feel to the act. Which is having a serious introspect a reminisce of the years passed by

The years to show that it was all wasted for being here in a existence that was meaningless

Certainly would do it outside if it's snowing (which probably I may not recommend it for someone like you , but again if you're willing give it an extra cent of symbolism by all means go for it.)

I'll have be having a time of my life in ice before I'm died lol
 
A_Spartan_Dead

A_Spartan_Dead

Life's sick joke is us; death is the punchline.
Dec 17, 2025
38
If my sn comes this week then I will ctb on the same day as Christmas
Wish I could get some SN.

Whatever you decide
I'm Wishing you all the best
If you do go,
I wish you a painless journey to the great beyond,
To find the peace and serenity you need.
Your bravery remembered.🫂♥️🕯️
 

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