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Nikita
- Apr 24, 2025
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or should i stay around until after xmas just to make my family happy idk
My family deserves me to CTB before Christmas honestly. They're one of the main cause of my suffering this past decade.or should i stay around until after xmas just to make my family happy idk
Lucky I'm scared of doing it cause of my weightI might do it tomorrow or on the 25th or before the end of the week too. See you in heaven
thanksI like your choice of pfps![]()
different things matter for different peopleYes, but why does it matter?
Oh damn. I'm pretty lightweight personally and my neck is long but it should be fine.Lucky I'm scared of doing it cause of my weight
Yeah I was talking about sn I tried hanging before but couldn't get it to workOh damn. I'm pretty lightweight personally and my neck is long but it should be fine.
As a chronic drinker, I can safely say it doesn't matter what you drink. All strong alcohol have the same effect on you. I'd advise against beer, wine, and that sort of thing because its more likely to make you sick, imo, especially if you dont drink often. Stick to spirits with a chaser, and choose whichever one is tastier to you. Something like rum or whiskey with a bit of cola is a classic.I'm trying to make it work but it's pretty painful so I'm wondering what alcohol to take to numb the pain for alcohol connoisseurs when I do it
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I've read many posts in the bereavement subreddit and the one that always sticks with me is someone who killed themself sometime in the summer and the family still associated xmas with their passing and never could celebrate the holidays again because of it. there are quite a lot of similar posts on their like that one and it made me think that it doesn't really matter when/if you go through with it because major holidays will always remind them of you.You should ideally aim for a two-week space at least between the day you choose to die and significant days.
if you have to ask this question i think it's better to stick around because it really sounds like you're unsure about ctb and also no one can decide this for you. the holidays are a terrible time for a lot of us and maybe you'll have a different perspective once they're over.or should i stay around until after xmas just to make my family happy idk
i wish i had sn, good luck!If my sn comes this week then I will ctb on the same day as Christmas
It's a matter of degree.I've read many posts in the bereavement subreddit and the one that always sticks with me is someone who killed themself sometime in the summer and the family still associated xmas with their passing and never could celebrate the holidays again because of it. there are quite a lot of similar posts on their like that one and it made me think that it doesn't really matter when/if you go through with it because major holidays will always remind them of you.
personally though i think it's definitely worse to do it on a major holiday but it was really eye opening for me reading posts like that.
Wish I could get some SN.If my sn comes this week then I will ctb on the same day as Christmas