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Hello everyone, Im new here. Ive really just been trying to find the quickest way to ctb. Ive had a chronic condition that has ruined my entire life, I always thought I was gonna grow out of it, but I just got diagnosed and found out a couple of months ago that its permanent and will affect my entire life. Ive always endured anything, sexual abuse, mental disorders, years of ostracization, but this is something that I cant just fight. Im sorry if Im rambling. Basically, is it possible to buy and let a camping stove run and produce carbon monoxide in my room with windows sealed and the cracks of the door covered? I was also planning to not sleep 24 hours beforehand just so I could fall asleep immediately and wouldnt feel the symptoms at all and die in my sleep. Unfortunately, I live with my mother, but since she would find me in the morning, Im sure I would be dead by then, right? Im too much of a pussy to jump, its just to public, even at night and I dont have any way I can hang myself for certain and I also dont know what substances I could use if I wanted to OD. Maybe I coule combine household things like bleach and alcohol and I could die from that? Ive heard SN is deadly, would I just have to mix like 20 grams with water and I would die? Please, someone respond, Im begging you, I just need advice.
 
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Welcome to SS! I'm sorry you have to go through this. Once you have a few more posts you get access to the search.



 
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Welcome to SS! I'm sorry you have to go through this. Once you have a few more posts you get access to the search.



Thank you so so much. Also, are these the only reliable methods? I just dont want to risk living afterwards, Ive just got to muster up the courage to do it. Anyway, thank you so much again.
 
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Thank you so so much. Also, are these the only reliable methods? I just dont want to risk living afterwards, Ive just got to muster up the courage to do it. Anyway, thank you so much again.
The Suicide Resource Compilation contains the most reliable methods imo. Ultimately, it's your personal preference which method you choose and are most comfortable with.
 
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