Discussion Will these thoughts ever stop?

[BecomingDiamond]

Hi, it's been a while since I been here, I thought I had no real sure for it as I have a semi public blog I vent my frustrations about wanting to die (It's called para8time, if you want to know, I don't mind anymore.) But I wanted to genuinely ask, sorry if this has been asked before, but does it ever get better? I've tried to attempt but I failed which took my will to kill myself away, so thus I'm stuck with these agonizing thoughts, and now dealing with a potential fear of a crush of mine, the first time I ever felt that way towards someone, not liking me because I'm fat and ugly, my suicidal thoughts have been the most loud they've ever been in years.

I've been going to therapy, I haven't taken the medicine because everyone dictates everything, I've been going outside and hanging with friends, but they just won't go away, no matter what and I feel like a horrible person lying to my friends.

If anyone has went through suicidal thoughts for a long time, please tell me if it does get better, or they will only leave when i succeed in ctb?

 

[decafcheeseburger]

I'm still in the process so I can't say for sure, but It seems to get better. Take the medicine. It helps a lot.

 

[Asya]

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[Kokonoe]

They might stop. They might come back. They might never stop.
I think it's something to learn to live with, rather than something that will ever permanently go away.