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Kobusu

Kobusu

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Oct 18, 2021
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I'm trying to create a list of supplies and set a calendar for myself to attempt ctb again. Hoping that this time next year I'll have a firearm of some sort to do the deed with (if I don't snap early and hang myself). What would be best to make clean-up easiest? I don't want to make it a pain in the ass scrubbing my blood and brains from the wall, but a tarp is incredibly conspicuous and heavy.
 
Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
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If you have an enclosed shower, that does a good job of keeping the bloody bits contained in a (relatively) easy to clean place. But if you really want no unnecessary cleanup, your best bet is probably outside, and give everything back to the earth.
 
Kobusu

Kobusu

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Oct 18, 2021
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If you have an enclosed shower, that does a good job of keeping the bloody bits contained in a (relatively) easy to clean place. But if you really want no unnecessary cleanup, your best bet is probably outside, and give everything back to the earth.
Yeah I was thinking that too, but it would be hard for me to get to the woods. Considering I have a long time to prepare though, it might be doable.
 
Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
308
Would your friends and family believe you want to go camping for a while? Like, if you said "I'm just getting a little overwhelmed. I'm going to on a little camping trip in X number of weeks. You know, get away from screens and just try to recharge."

That could buy you a few days of no one expecting to see/hear from you and less chance of being discovered before you're ready.
 
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Kobusu

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Actually that's a great idea, I really hadn't considered it. I might be able to do something like that,though not right now as I'm fresh from the hospital. Thanks for the idea.
 
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