Why

[bloomingdark]

I can't understand anything right now, I am sleep deprived and I have little to no air because of my anxiety, I must say this sucks but we already know that


I am just here putting in words all my frustrations and my intrusive thoughts , I was on way to recovery but I feel like I really wanna die, peacefully


One of my best friends and my boyfriend always tell me the special that I am and that I remember them the reasons and Passion of being alive

How the fuck? I think , someone that constantly wants to die...

I am watching what's inside me and I see nothing

I try to look in the past , I see nothing too, can't remember

And I don't want future with this fucking need of air, with my damage ears , with my heart beating with irregularities


The truth is I am a coward

I wish I was not, could take a knife and kill myself right now.

 

[sadworld]

I'm sorry to hear all that, sending hugs

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

You are not a coward. It is one of the hardest thing to do, if not the hardest. Just don't act on impulse, you would most probably just hurt yourself and be worse off than you are now. Take your time to think things through, you can always make that choice.