Venting Why you are this way mom?

[Aknu132]

She put me in situations that traumatized me, she let me develop habits that were terrible for my health, she let me live in suffering all this time, and in the end, she blames me. I'm not to blame. She should love me—she's my mother. Why are people so cruel? Why do they do this? After letting me be ruined, she goes and blames me for it, I always want to cry; I'm weak physically and mentally. I didn't ask to be born. I wanted so badly to overcome my survival instinct and just end this all at once, but before that, I wanted so badly a place just for myself. I wanted not to see the faces or hear the voices of everyone who's ever hurt me or that let other people hurt me. I want to isolate myself before I die; I wanted at least a little rest before i go.

 

[Reeincarnation]

I'm sorry to hear your mother is a big reason for your suffering, no one deserves that. Sometimes we ask ourselves "why?" as a form of coping for in what reality might be a bad deck of cards from destiny. It is hard to realize that a lot of these things have nothing to do with us, and are out of our control. So all we are left with is "why, why, and why"

I too ask myself why I have gone through all I have all the time, and I also struggle with parents that feed into my negative emotions.

All children deserve parents, but not all parents deserve children. I hope it gets better for you soon, friend. Try to be kind to yourself, my heart goes out to you

 

[negi-maguro]

I hear you. I'm having the same struggle. Despite being an adult, the issue has persisted and left me a broken man. My two cents: People can be cruel because they have expectations that we don't meet. My parents were neglectful and cruel, they expected me to grasp what they wanted. When I couldn't meet their expectations, I was punished heavily. People can also be cruel because they have already have a set of expectations that not everyone has the ability or opportunity to meet. The job market is cruel, the dating scene is cruel, the entire capitalist system is cruel. And those cruelty leaves a mark on all of us. It hurts so bad, sometimes it makes me wonder if I have any worth. Hell, it's the reason I'm on this forum in the first place.

 

[Aknu132]

I'm sorry to hear your mother is a big reason for your suffering, no one deserves that. Sometimes we ask ourselves "why?" as a form of coping for in what reality might be a bad deck of cards from destiny. It is hard to realize that a lot of these things have nothing to do with us, and are out of our control. So all we are left with is "why, why, and why"

I too ask myself why I have gone through all I have all the time, and I also struggle with parents that feed into my negative emotions.

All children deserve parents, but not all parents deserve children. I hope it gets better for you soon, friend. Try to be kind to yourself, my heart goes out to you

Thank you so much for this message @Reeincarnation, i'm sorry that you too have bad parents, i know, it hurts a lot, i send you hugs from far , thank you so much. i'm kinda drunk right know , sorry if i misspelled something.

I hear you. I'm having the same struggle. Despite being an adult, the issue has persisted and left me a broken man. My two cents: People can be cruel because they have expectations that we don't meet. My parents were neglectful and cruel, they expected me to grasp what they wanted. When I couldn't meet their expectations, I was punished heavily. People can also be cruel because they have already have a set of expectations that not everyone has the ability or opportunity to meet. The job market is cruel, the dating scene is cruel, the entire capitalist system is cruel. And those cruelty leaves a mark on all of us. It hurts so bad, sometimes it makes me wonder if I have any worth. Hell, it's the reason I'm on this forum in the first place.

i'm so sorry for you, they bring us to this fucking hell and when we don't meet the expectations they hurt us, we not ask for any of this, we have not appeared from nothing, they bring us here, they should be responsible, but it hurts so much, i still try seeking attention from my mom, but she always hurt me back, i just want to have a lovely mom, that's all. all you write are completely right, capitalism really is very cruel, and date is so hard, we are too broken to have the chance to find someone. it's sad.