Why is it so hard?

[forgivemegod]

I no longer have any hope of getting better, but I feel like I'm stuck in this existence because CTB is so fucking hard :(
I think I will just move to another city and live in the streets and hope I die thsre

 

[kitkat9234]

I feel the same. Like I'm trapped. Too scared that I will fail again to try and not able to deal with this miserable life. I hate that it's so hard.

 

[Agon321]

I think I've come to terms with the fact that I can't handle CTB.
The only chance is that the world will force me against a wall and CTB will be the only solution, or the world will simply kill me somehow.
At this point, I'm just waiting, I don't know what the fuck for.

 

[forgivemegod]

I'm paralyzed trying to think of an accessible and peaceful method, but even SN, which people talk about as if it were the most peaceful, scares me.

 

[Raven2]

At this point, I'm just waiting, I don't know what the fuck for.

I felt that last sentence.

 

[ultradespair]

Being able to choose when you wouldn't wake up ever again from your sleep is the dream

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also feel trapped in this cruel existence, I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently, I wish you the best.