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777cave

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Aug 11, 2023
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Seriously, I'm willing to take any illness, so I can die and someone else (who wants to live) can keep living. Why isn't this possible???
 
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moonshard

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Feb 3, 2026
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I feel this way too, I feel so bad for being suicidal with a relatively healthy body. I wish I had some sort of terminal illness so I could die without judgement or hard feelings. It's so unfair that people who actually have something to live for have to pass away from something terrible
 
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RiftbornVeil

RiftbornVeil

always a dreamer <3
Feb 8, 2026
35
I feel this way too, I feel so bad for being suicidal with a relatively healthy body. I wish I had some sort of terminal illness so I could die without judgement or hard feelings. It's so unfair that people who actually have something to live for have to pass away from something terrible
Exactly. That's another sort of pain I couldn't wish on anyone, though I would gladly wish it on myself to CTB with less judgement. Being unable to do this feels like a loss of potential somehow
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,111
I understand as all I want is to be free from this torturous, dreadful existence, I only envy those who no longer suffer in this existence, to never suffer ever again is all I hope for, I hope you find peace.
 
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tomatriste

tomatriste

hopeless 💔
Dec 28, 2025
49
i think this too 😭 i feel so ungrateful, but it depresses me to think of daily mental suffering into older age years
 
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