Why can't i just get on with it

[406metallicblue]

It's not going to get any better and every day is torture, either with thoughts of death or of life. The only thing that gets me through another day is the thought that i'm ready to go, putting it off, drinking all day and taking my meds in random quantities, inching my may towards some solution that i don't have the courage to see through, although i know it's the only active thing i can accomplish. And being haunted by the effect on my family. I know similar posts have been put up before and really i know the answer, just venting a bit and feeling stuck. Just do it man and stop blathering on about it.

 

[AhG]

It's always good to get things off your chest, whether it be here or Reddit. Some days will be better than others, and hopefully you'll get those good days! If you need to talk, I'm here mate!

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

It's not going to get any better and every day is torture, either with thoughts of death or of life. The only thing that gets me through another day is the thought that i'm ready to go, putting it off, drinking all day and taking my meds in random quantities, inching my may towards some solution that i don't have the courage to see through, although i know it's the only active thing i can accomplish. And being haunted by the effect on my family. I know similar posts have been put up before and really i know the answer, just venting a bit and feeling stuck. Just do it man and stop blathering on about it.

I could have written these exact words.

 

[cappuccinogirl]

I feel exactly the same. Got unfixable physical health problem, life is hell , I desperately just want to not wake up yet every time I try and do it I get scared and anxious and chicken out. I'm a coward it seems and so frustrated. Other people seem to manage it. Doesn't help got difficulties with preferred method. I did it once and failed, so I can do it. Ahhh