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Lo$t95

Lo$t95

Hello Darkness my old Friend
Jul 16, 2024
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The Woman who gave birth to me looked down at me as a baby and decided to give me away for adoption despite keeping my older sister. Rejected by the first person who was capable of loving or caring for me. Never meeting someone you share blood with is a painful emptiness I wouldn't wish on anyone.

I will never know my sister no trace just a name - a unique and beautiful one in my opinion. I will never have the chance to care for her, to protect her from this world or simply have the memories of growing up with her. I miss someone who most likely doesn't know I exist. I should have been an abortion.

The ripple effect of me being born never amounted to anything lasting or positive in any significant way whatsoever. I am basically a glitch in the matrix that shouldn't exist. Like a typo in the cosmos that didn't break or hurt anything but is a slight imperfection in reality.

I hate myself so much it's hard to breathe sometimes.
 
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