I just don't belong in this torturous, futile existence where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel rather I only belong in non-existence, I'm only meant to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, non-existence truly is all that's positive for me and is all I see as desirable. I just want peace from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible harmful mistake, to me existence itself really is the true problem and I never should had been burdened with this existence, I really will always wish and hope to not exist no matter what, I'd never wish for any of this.