When was the last time you were actually happy ?

[DivineSpark]

It has been looooong time since I felt really happy.

 

[kinoki]

When I made a friend of mine named Vincent, we were very good friends but he ultimately betrayed me and used me.

 

[Yume Nikki]

Before I met my ex.

 

[divinemistress36]

When I was womb

 

[lawr]

As far as true, sustained happiness goes... probably never. But I appreciate those fleeting happy moments that come now and again. I love my friends like brothers (though they don't know this), and I am as close to happiness as I can get when I'm spending time with them.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Like others have said- fleeting moments. Oddly, they've been when I've been around other people so, it makes less sense I choose to isolate myself. Probably because my worst moments have also been around others too!

But- that really giddy, genuinely grateful feeling of love and happiness? I know I've experienced it once at least, having a meal out with my God parents. Maybe 15 years ago now! But in that moment, I felt content, calm, loved and loving. It was pretty incredible. I wondered if this was how other people felt a lot of the time- in which case, wanting to live would make a whole lot more sense.

I wondered if it was a turning point for me. I wondered how long it would last (not long at all if I remember rightly.) I wondered how bad it would feel to fall back down. As it happens, it was fleeting enough for me to return to (my pessimistic) normal self pretty quickly.

 

[cme-dme]

Kind of like what @lawr said, there are brief moments of happiness which usually come from spending time with friends or going somewhere I enjoy but I probably haven't had long, sustained happiness since I was a child.

 

[theolivanderroach]

Before I was disillusioned with life, so since I was a child up to around age 12

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Looong time for me too.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never wished to exist and never would do no matter what, I always find it so torturous and dreadful to suffer in this existence, I personally don't believe in the idea of happiness in existing because for me existence is a burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and in general I just find it deeply undesirable to exist. I personally just want peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, only non-existence is positive for me as after all only then will I be unable to suffer with all finally gone and forgotten about, I just want to never exist ever again, to me existence really does just feel like a mistake and the fact that this existence was imposed is such a tragedy to me, I was just never meant for the dreadful cruelty and suffering of human existence and I suffer just from being conscious, I just want nothingness, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

If we mean even for fleeting moments, I have those somewhat frequently, maybe a couple to a few times per week.

If we mean a perpetual state of happiness and/or state of content, I have not felt that in a very long time. I can't recall when I last felt that way but I am certain it was prior to 2018. My life was irreparably damaged in that year.

 

[roommate]

I've had some burst of happiness, but honestly it fades away so quickly

 

[DivineSpark]

August, 2023. Before my depression, before my anxieties. Everything was perfect. Then all fell apart due to depression. I now hate my life.

I am sorry you had to lose everything. I feel like my situation is getting worse every year.

 

[DivineSpark]

Yes, I had a great job, I really loved it, a nice family, a nice salary, everything. Then out of nowhere, I started having anxiety, depression, panic attacks so I was fired from my dream career. Been hospitalized for 6 months, tried all the antidepressants out there, even did 8 ECT treatments but nothing helped me. I am tired and just wanna rest. What's your story?

My story? There is nothing much to tell. I always felt like an outcast. So, I have no personal achievements. No job, no career, no family. Also struggling with demons and mental health problems.

 

[restlesseyes]

I think the last time I was happy is when I was in high school before I lost a long term girlfriend life was perfect and stress free plus I felt like I was a way better person back then , now I' feel like I'm incapable of loving or feeling

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I don't remember. Too many years ago.