When do you ask for help ?

[myattempt]

Such a funny question - asking for help when you're suicidal - it's a humiliation ritual where you beg for help because you've been socially indoctrinated into believing that they have a fix (mh services) - it's just not the case

And when nothing works and you decide you want to ctb - suddenly you lack capacity

I've planned to ctb and all I really wait for is the time I get lucky I guess.

My most recent attempt was FSH - and right before that I tried to sort 1g of heroin (I passed out before snorting it all) - keep in mind It was my first time

Injecting h will probably be the method I use to ctb - ( I will read up on the opiod megathread
Idk it feels illogical to not be suicidal in this society I only feel 'depressed' when suicide feel far away like it's not an option.

 

[Moniker]

It feels kind of pointless to ask people for help. I've done it before and nothing came of it. I also don't really see the point in trying to live in a world that I despise. I don't really want help anymore.

Mental healthcare stuff doesn't feel like much beyond gaslighting people into thinking life is better than it appears.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

One time I told just a regular doctor I was suicidal and she said go to inpatient so I did. What a waste of time. The next couple times I still felt like I had a duty to tell "the professionals" but I doubt that more all the time. Maybe pills pulled me out of my latest depression, but maybe not. I seem to have an annual cycle.

 

[PureEndless]

I think we're at the point where society has given up.

Even doctors are starting to get apathetic.

In Canada this year they're gonna consider allowing psychiatric euthanasia. I'm totally for it. Pro-choice. Some lady is already suing the Canadian government for the right to die.

I hope it spreads to other countries.

Once people have the right to die, not only can they achieve peace and get out of suffering...

But maybe the help out there, will actually begin to care.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

In Canada this year they're gonna consider allowing psychiatric euthanasia. I'm totally for it. Pro-choice. Some lady is already suing the Canadian government for the right to die.

What a dream it would be to flip the lever and get intravenous N. No pain at all, just dreamless sleep.

 

[PureEndless]

What a dream it would be to flip the lever and get intravenous N. No pain at all, just dreamless sleep.

Truly.

It goes with the dignity of being respected for your decision.

It is literally the most dignified and humane way of handling things.

I wish it were already a reality.

 

[peacecomingsoon]

One time I told just a regular doctor I was suicidal and she said go to inpatient so I did. What a waste of time. The next couple times I still felt like I had a duty to tell "the professionals" but I doubt that more all the time. Maybe pills pulled me out of my latest depression, but maybe not. I seem to have an annual cycle.

Can't relate more. Such a waste of time every time I've asked for help and yet now, perhaps due to the constant instruction by all these health professionals over the years to seek 'help' when needed, I too feel like I have a duty to tell. It's difficult because in reality when you've already planned your ctb, have the means and are decided/certain, there is not much 'help' available other than risk containment, which is not treatment in any way.

I also seem to have an annual cycle of depressive episodes and this is one of the first times I've seen someone mention this on here, so thought I'd comment. It's endless despair, the cycle never stops and makes me feel so hopeless, I have no future... The system really is fucked.

 

[myattempt]

Yes definitely after being sectioned the first time and being honest with them and ending up staying 43days after discharge being medicated I still felt the same -mh services felt like such a let down a massive disappointment thinking is this it - is this all they have to offer - the second time I got sectioned only for 10 days since I refused to take medication or engage at all - I realised it's all gaslighting since the doctor told me to get out I need to speak to them more and then they realised it was a waste of time and let me go a few days before the appeal date - I read this article about this study and it said people with lower levels of education are less likely to appeal their section - they can only gaslight you if you're stupid enough to fall for it
I hope to ctb by heroin intravenously it's the closest I'll get to the similarites of nembutal - the uk definitely will not be legalising assisted euthanasia any time soon