Venting When did you guys realise nobody gives a shit?

[gimpyfairy]

It took me a while but I finally get it.
Nobody gives a shit until you die and end up on the news
My family does not give a shit, my friends do not give a shit, no one does
I've never been more surrounded by people, and I've never felt less cared for.

 

[LastNite]

Long time ago

 

[Brokensaddle]

It took me a while but I finally get it.
Nobody gives a shit until you die and end up on the news
My family does not give a shit, my friends do not give a shit, no one does
I've never been more surrounded by people, and I've never felt less cared for.

This one is hard. I told my work supervisor about my issue at home and the way I have been treated and she cried, also she spent 2 hours trying to convince to go into hospital. But at other points in my life my family, and various other medical professionals have completely kicked when i have been down in life. I guess i do believe some people are good, it's just unfortunate that I haven't come across them often

 

[nocatwaslost]

I think that was maybe about half a year ago. I was with people and tried to slowly open up and talk about me not being well mentally. They simply changed the topic about what game to play next. That was a hard punch in the stomach. It is hard to find people who care, but if you find them, hold them close.

 

[User111885]

around 8 or 9 years old

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I sadly don't remember the age when I realized this, all I know is that it was many, many years ago.

 

[gimpyfairy]

I think part of me always knew this but I purposefully prevented myself from making friends for years, and now that I've made a few and their complete lack of care just made me remember it again.

 

[orpheus_]

around 8 or 9 years old

same lol

 

[BeyondSurvival]

I know that feeling. Thanks to the universe, I haven't felt that way recently, but I still feel unworthy.

 

[woodlandcreature]

when i was 6.

 

[Lycoris]

I think what hurts the most for me is knowing people care but only to the extent in which it'll affect them.

 

[nocatwaslost]

I think what hurts the most for me is knowing people care but only to the extent in which it'll affect them.

Can you elaborate on that? Do you mean that people only will care when it has negative consequences for them?

 

[rainatthebusstop]

I think what hurts the most for me is knowing people care but only to the extent in which it'll affect them.

That's so real. Every time I openened up about how much I want to die, the discussion always became "Have you considered how I would feel about it? I would be devasted! What would our neighbours think? You're being really selfish for saying this. Are you trying to hurt me?" ect.

I think people give a shit but only because they're conditioned to. Like they don't really give a fuck but you killing yourself makes them look bad. That's what they care about

 

[soulchaser_]

I live in a pretty dysfunctional family. So it really hit when I used to cry in my room, and everyone would be around me, and nobody would even acknowledge it, nor care.

but when my siblings cried I was the one they spewed their thoughts onto, and I always listened, tried to help. but they never cared for me.

recently I opened up about my suicidal thoughts to my ex girlfriend and got called selfish as well. so here's that. feels like everyone around me couldn't give less of a fuck.

 

[Delusion]

Very recently actually! This Halloween

 

[android]

That's the truth. Nobody gives a fuck. It's not that they don't want to, it's that they can't. Everyone is in a little bubble of their own mind, only being able to see and understand the things that they want to see.

 

[Marbas]

When I was a kid growing up with not great parents. Humans treat other human beings pretty terribly.

 

[calebzz1]

I would say the following three incidents cemented this.

1. My mom decided to pull a second stunt for no apparent reason which compromised my safety, our housing and everything for no reason.

I told her multiple times how disabling my visual impairment is and I knew she wasn't listening at all the whole time which hurt the most.

She never took what I said seriously because I explained how I could have went crazy multiple times.

It's very hurtful and a big reason why I want to live alone because of the instability.

2. When at a family gathering previously, my older brother decided to say "I work with fucking blind people." and lied to my face twice regarding taking myself out to lunch in addition to seeing a specialist.

I wish him the best but I know he has the resources to help my situation yet commiserates with my other brother (technically step) instead since he has more influence and business-like attributes.

My other brother is super cool and I'm not mad at him in the slightest but my older brother should know better morally.

3. Explaining the same story over and over again to countless relevant providers stating that I want to work and help the househould out more yet nothing changes regarding how I experience my impairment.

Imagine wanting to desperately gain more function to properly enjoy your old hobbies but there's constant roadblocks and all you want to do is read a book, play videogames, watch television plus movies without struggle.

I'm always blessed for the people on SaSu since I can be raw and real with no repercussions, my mom can't handle anything ever it's super frustrating but our personalities are quite different.

Unfortunately, I'm starting to lose empathy a bit because I've helped people countless times and I still can barely see my mom's face at 25.

It's brutal but I've gained a lot of respect for individuals who have low vision and are visually impaired.