user667
Student
- May 11, 2020
- 255
im planning on ctb-ing in the next few weeks. but im not sure when and where to do it because i have a tough situation (my method is SN). i am 19 but i had to move back home due to the pandemic, so i live with my parents. obviously i am an adult and should be able to make my own decisions, but since i am living with my parents and not paying rent, i have to follow their strict rules. they know i am suicidal so they are keeping an eye on me. they both go to work and leave me home alone from 8-3, but my sister is home as well. she is busy with school so if i ctb in that time frame with my door locked there is a very low chance she would find me, but it is still risky. i have no car and no money for a hotel. i could walk somewhere but im not sure where i could go. my parents keep very close tabs on me so it is hard to go somewhere without them knowing. my other option is to do it at night while everyone else is asleep. i could check and make sure they are asleep then lock myself in my room and drink the SN. however if i vomit (im not taking an antiemetic), or if i am like making noises or something it could wake them. leaving my house would be ideal, but without a car or money im not sure what i could do. i live in a city so there is no forests or anything. what do you guys think?
