What would you do on the last day?

[moonli8t]

I don't know what I should do on that day. I haven't set a date yet because I haven't got the money to buy N. I'm hoping it'll be next year till I saved enough money. So what are you guys planning to do when the day arrives?

 

[andy69]

Most suicides are impulsive. I do know what will happen exact;y. I have written notes. I will package some things to send to someone.

 

[LogicalConclusion]

I'd finalize my notes and make sure everything was in order, schedule e-mails/messages to specific people (though as few as possible to minimize any possible impact on them) and also alert the authorities to take my body so nobody else finds me and ends up traumatized. Once all of that was in order, I think I'd like to take my dog out for a run and let him roll around in the grass and give my cat all the belly rubs (she likes them) and treats.

 

[Faraway1990]

In my last week Make sure all my notes are in order, maybe phone some people say goodbye without saying goodbye, watch my favourite anime play my favourite games eat a lot of really nice foods etc . Probably post on here definitely delete any history of being here from my phone etc I know how crazy some of my family are if they decide to investigate. I'm going to drift off day dreaming maybe drunk and feeling okay with my decision.

 

[Jolene40]

Most suicides are impulsive. I do know what will happen exact;y. I have written notes. I will package some things to send to someone.

Do you think they are more liable to failure because of that? I so desperately don't want to die and leave my son but my illnesses/ physical symptoms and now anxiety from hell are making me feel so panicky. The other night I was walking round pacing the room desperate for my suffering to stop. I was looking round desperately for anything. I have no plan as have realised it is no easy thing

 

[LaBrava]

If things go as planned I'll spend it in the city where I used to live, wandering around old haunts one last time. Hopefully not feeling rough from anti-emetics.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Bang an escort, have a good lunch and think about all these failures in my fucking life.

 

[Final Escape]

I have a feeling I'm only goin to be able to plan to a certain extent. I might just leave most of everything as is. No notes, maybe clean up the place, square away as much as I can. I'm nervous about doing in motel room, they now have hidden cameras in many hotels and motels. Like inside the rooms, yea I know right? I might change the N into different container when I go to motel.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I will take a psychedelic a week before, start playing a spotify playlist a day before. The day of I will chill all day meditate, play music, put some incense and candles on. Maybe micro-dose a psychedelic. And drink my N and be at peace with myself and the world.

 

[21Neberg]

lol lets be realistic here im never leaving my bed

 

[andy69]

Do you think they are more liable to failure because of that? I so desperately don't want to die and leave my son but my illnesses/ physical symptoms and now anxiety from hell are making me feel so panicky. The other night I was walking round pacing the room desperate for my suffering to stop. I was looking round desperately for anything. I have no plan as have realised it is no easy thing
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I guess so I read somewhere there are 22 attempts to 1 successful suicide. I live in the US. A lot of guns available for people to hurt themselves, and unfortunately others.

 

[Scribble Fan]

I'm thinking more of a suicide week where I'll read all my favorite books and web comics, watch my top movies, listen to music, maybe play an old game or two, and for once just have a happy, stress free seven days of escape without caring about anything before passing.

My only fear is that I will enjoy the weight lifted off my shoulders so much I wont be able to ctb. Then I'll just end up sinking back into reality, become suicidal again, and hang on impulse.

C'est la vie.

 

[LaBrava]

they now have hidden cameras in many hotels and motels. Like inside the rooms yea I know right?

Shit, is that so?

 

[Final Escape]

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[ExitTheDay]

I've always wanted to take mushrooms while watching northern lights, so this would probably be the ideal experience for me days before I CTB

 

[Rukia]

I will ask sisters of mercy to pray for me..still if there is hell it probably wouldnt save me.

 

[feral]

drive up to see my boyfriend and spend the rest of that day with him, high and drunk as fuck

 

[crimea_river]

Most probably feeling very anxious that it'll go off as planned, it goes without saying that I'll be feeling crap anyway.

 

[N-IsMyHope]

I will bake my favorite jiggly Japanese cheese cake and leave it on dining table. Have some of cake, wearing favorite sweatshirt and legging then drink n on my bed. Sounds good. (I don't care to leave a note.)