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Jona

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Jul 27, 2025
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If you could live your life again and decide at which stage it begins, e.g. as a child, teenager, adult, pensioner. And the respective phases go hand in hand with the usual events that are common in this phase of life, such as school attendance as a child, puberty as a teenager, career entry and midlife crisis as an adult and retirement as a pensioner.

What would you choose (or what age) and why?

I would choose to be an adult, around 40 years old, as I feel I have had much more experience than I would have had as a child or teenager. As a pensioner I am closer to the time when I will have to rely on the help of others and do without things that I was able to do as a younger person due to the circumstances of getting older. This stage of life would be uncomfortable for me
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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None of them appeal to be honest. I'm tired of all of it. I'm 45 by the way- so, I've experienced first hand what each stage was like for me. Personally, my thirties were my better years but, still not good enough for me to want to experience them again. I just want all this shit overwith.
 
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TBONTB

Arcanist
May 31, 2025
413
I tried to answer this question, but looking at my own life every phase had pain that I would not wish to repeat.

I think generally the 30s-40s-50s have the best chance of being good. Youth is hard because you aren't comfortable in your own skin. And age is hard because...well, age.
 
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Jadeith

Arcanist
Jan 14, 2025
405
If you could live your life again and decide at which stage it begins
Funeral. Not gonna repeat same mistake again.
 
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Hellis

Hellis

Scared into Recovery
Jul 25, 2025
43
After I tried to kill myself in my senior year of school, I spent the next 3 years as a himikomori doing nothing all day. I was fucking depressed but I didn't have to be hated by people because nobody knew I was even alive lol. It was freeing.

Now I try to kill myself and when I fail I still gotta go to work in the morning :(
 
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leloyon

leloyon

I'll see you in the Wired.
Feb 4, 2023
1,504
I wish I could go back to when I was ten years old, so I could undo the many mistakes which fucked my life.
 
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a-fond-farewell

"You say she's waiting, and I know what for"
May 22, 2025
53
I wish I could go back to when I was ten years old, so I could undo the many mistakes which fucked my life.
yeah, honestly anywhere from like 8-12, I would go back. I would confide in friends about what my parents were doing and I'd gather evidence for years. I'd also seek mental health treatment earlier. I would've talked to a school counselor earlier. I would've talked to CPS when they came over.
 
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moonlightbeach

moonlightbeach

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Jul 14, 2025
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probably child, and take music lessons.
i wouldn't want to live again though, i suffered even when i was a little kid and even if i changed something i would still be impaled by the society. i hate not being a cis girl.
 
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leloyon

leloyon

I'll see you in the Wired.
Feb 4, 2023
1,504
yeah, honestly anywhere from like 8-12, I would go back. I would confide in friends about what my parents were doing and I'd gather evidence for years. I'd also seek mental health treatment earlier. I would've talked to a school counselor earlier. I would've talked to CPS when they came over.
I'd make sure to take my mental health more seriously now that I'd understand exactly what was wrong. Stay in school, don't do dumb shit that I did in this run, do dumb shit that I didn't do in this run 'cuz I actually shoulda lived a little. Could have come out as trans, even if it may have caused me ostracization, I'd at least have no regrets.
 
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SmilingNoMore

SmilingNoMore

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
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Well I haven't tried pensioner yet, so that would be the only unknown and possible better option I guess. But then I would need enough money to live as one, healthy, and with my partner.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Warlock
Mar 15, 2025
746
I'd like to be a teenager again, but knowing what I know now. Free, single, and not seen as a grandfatherly figure by anyone under the age of 30. On the other hand, it's nice to be older, closer to natural death, running out the clock and not giving a f* about anything.
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The masochist who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
342
I don't think I've lived long enough to give a proper answer. I would have to at least make it to middle age before I can make my decision as I would be wise then.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,019
I was a preterm birth
disabled and sick
disadvantiged since birth
born into an abusive family
my entire life has been a nightmare
 
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Seered Doom

Seered Doom

A nihilist going through an unrelinquished Hell
Sep 9, 2023
991
Death preferred
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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Anytime before puberty. Puberty was when depression hit
 
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Amile

Amile

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Sep 17, 2020
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before puberty for myself too.
7-12 were the only years i actually enjoyed; before that i do no remember enough, and since 12 everything has been downhill.
 
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chiefkeefe23

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Apr 14, 2022
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interesting question. probably 12-15 .the last time i had "potential", now i just failed and do random shit

but the realest thing would have been to never get born in the first place
 
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neurotoxic

neurotoxic

Student
Sep 15, 2019
133
i dunno. i was happy before my nonna died and i started getting bounced around every few months, so like before 7 i guess. but i dont wanna go throught that again. so maybe id wanna start from the beginning and hope i just get adopted by a young couple or something that time around.
 
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