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lotus11

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May 18, 2019
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For me, my appearance is a big problem...technically I'm not even that ugly. Its more self-image issues. I see myself as really ugly. I've had an eating disorder for 10 years now and I basically haven't taken or allowed a photo to be taken of my self for around 7 or those years. I think it has been the right choice because any photo I see just makes me so depressed. In a hypothetical world, If I could ever see photos of myself and actually like myself and think I am pretty and have a nice body It would really improve how I feel.

A second thing, If I could afford my own place to live. I'm not talking a mansion or something like that, just a basic place that is modern inside, not a shit hole, which a couple of bedrooms would make my life a lot better, it would take away a lot of stress for me.

What about for you guys?
Please be specific....dont just say 'money' say what the money would be for for example
 
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Deleted member 17949

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May 9, 2020
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Self image is a big issue for me too. I can't even look at myself in a mirror without it triggering a lot of anxiety and sad feels, and I really hate being in public because I don't want to be seen. It stresses me out a lot.

Aside from that, I wish I had the motivation to work more, both for education and for an actual job. I find it so hard to do anything and it really holds my life back.
 
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Élégie

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Sep 24, 2019
143
I also have pretty severe self-esteem issues... I've been struggling with body dysmorphia and disordered eating since I was a teenager, so of course the first thing that would make me feel better would be changing my appearance (or at least my perception of it).

Secondly, I would like to be financially independent so I could move to the countryside and live there for the rest of my life.

Thirdly, I wish I could make friends more easily. I've been socially isolated for a decade and it's taking a serious toll on my mental health. I wish I had someone to talk to and go on adventures with (hikes, bike rides, road trips...)
 
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Apr 10, 2020
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Strangely enough while I don't have body image issues, I have self image issues (is that a thing?) My body looks fine and I like looking at myself, but I hate my personality and how I live my life. I hate how lazy and selfish and cowardly I am, sometimes I can't even look at the mirror. Sometimes I want to start everything over.

If I could have something, it's a second chance. I'm in college and the future career prospects aren't something I wanted anymore. I want to start over and do what I want, get a job that I could actually like. I believe I'll have to work something hard and awful to be rich, and I want to be rich, but I'm done feeling unhappy. I want to be content.

For now, I just want some money to get myself a new phone and I want to kiss my friend (I had my first kiss last year and it's an instant serotonin boost holy shit I'm instantly happy for a week after a kiss). That's all lol
 
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Deleted member 18655

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Jun 4, 2020
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An email. I'm such a f*cking fool. I really am.
 
Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

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Aug 21, 2019
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Practically? Drugs.
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

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Jul 19, 2020
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I *need* my old life back. Without, I'm nothing.

I'd love to feel support from my old friends, but most have abandoned me.

I'd love to feel attractive, but I never do. I just see myself as fugly.

And I hate to admit this, but I miss alcohol. I have it up because my husband is an alcoholic and we made a life decision to be teetotalers. It's been four years since we made that life change. I've had one drink in that time - a night when I was horribly upset with him and went to visit a friend. He's had four relapses since then. I made the decision to support his way of life, but I feel like I'm suffering because of it. Idk I just feel really guilty for thinking that. Sometimes I really just want a vodka tonic.
 
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Worthless_nobody

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Feb 14, 2019
1,384
My own home...not rent or apartment. Nothing fancy just a modest little house to call home...just like my old home that I lost. I just got the means to possibly do this but covid ruined it with the insane housing market.... houses go pending in a day... apparently everyone and their mother wants a house now and everything is way way to expensive.

Also my appearance and general self/personality. I want the old me back.
 
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Sprite_Geist

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May 27, 2020
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An affordable place to live in the last few weeks/months of my life, and a quick and foolproof way to CTB once I actually do it. A perfect dissapearing act with no mess.
 
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