What should I do if this were my last 48 hours?

[andy69]

I wish I could speak to my ex-partner. But he is in Italy with his new partner. I am so alone. No friends, no family.

 

[Phoenix1990]

Talk here. Everyone is here to listen. I know it's not the same as having an actual person in front of you, offering support, but we are here. You are not alone.

 

[LonelyLight]

Yes, as Phoenix said, you are not alone and can share anything with us and we will support you. Otherwise if you would like to PM me, please do, about anything at all, I am always up for a chat.

 

[andy69]

I thought about doing it all weekend, but didn't. I allowed myself to turn fifty. I thought things would get better. They don't.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Do anything that you've ever wanted to try. Eat your favorite foods. Just go speshit with them. That's what I'm going to do? Just each until I probably puke. If you don't want to be alone we are all here for you.

 

[andy69]

Do anything that you've ever wanted to try. Eat your favorite foods. Just go speshit with them. That's what I'm going to do? Just each until I probably puke. If you don't want to be alone we are all here for you.

Thank you. It's just that I fell like I mever had anybody on my side. I've lost jobs and a career. People who I thought were my friends abandoned me. The person I loved more than myself for sixteen years, dumped me like a sack of garbage. I serve no purpose and people don't want me around. I'm too much of a coward to do most logical thing.

 

[Return2Dust]

Thank you. It's just that I fell like I mever had anybody on my side. I've lost jobs and a career. People who I thought were my friends abandoned me. The person I loved more than myself for sixteen years, dumped me like a sack of garbage. I serve no purpose and people don't want me around. I'm too much of a coward to do most logical thing.

The person you loved more than yourself sounds like he didn't appreciate what he had. What makes you happy? If you gave yourself permission to focus only on your happiness for 48 hours, what would you do?

 

[Sweet emotion]

Thank you. It's just that I fell like I mever had anybody on my side. I've lost jobs and a career. People who I thought were my friends abandoned me. The person I loved more than myself for sixteen years, dumped me like a sack of garbage. I serve no purpose and people don't want me around. I'm too much of a coward to do most logical thing.

You're not a coward. It's terrifying to think about ending you're own life. I'm petrified too. I wish you didn't feel like you serve no purpose. But I feel like that too so I understand. I know how alone you must feel so it just makes me sad.