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Emerita

Emerita

My time is terminal
Jan 16, 2025
136
I have always wanted to die in winter. I find it more pleasant to imagine my dead body in winter than on a hot summer day. Someone close to me died in winter, so I think it would be nice to share the same scenery they did. I would like to stand outside one last time. The night would be almost bright from the skies light reflecting off the snow, creating a sparkling landscape and the silence that feels unique to a winter would settle in the night. The sharpness in the air seems more fitting for an end compared to the freshness of summer air. There is a calmness and sadness in winter, a sort of letting-go feeling. I like the coldness how it burns your skin. I don't know if I will ctb before winter I do plan on it but I love winter and it would be my preferred time to go.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Warlock
Feb 9, 2025
735
Doesnt really matter to me, as long as I am dead
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,657
I don't care about the season of the year bc there are external circumstances that make me suicidal and may push me over the edge - they are totally independent of seasons. However, my chosen method is CO with charcoal and summer (& fall) are the worst seasons for this method due to the heat.

If the worst case is gonna happen and I have to decide for any other method I wouldn't care about the season of the year as this is irrelevant in my case.
 
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Amile

Amile

Member
Sep 17, 2020
24
Autumn.
Actually where i live, as we are in the equator we don't have the common seasons at all, there is only a rainy season in the first half of the year and a more sunny season in the other half. I love the autumn and as I had never seen it i would die to see it in real life (literally lol).
 
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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

Experienced
May 28, 2024
289
Halloween baby! Or New Year's Eve.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
364
On a summer night.
 
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SmilingNoMore

SmilingNoMore

Elementalist
Nov 25, 2024
894
For me it's more the time of year if I had to choose. Decembers are not the greatest for me because January is looming around the corner and just the thought of doing it all over again usually gets to me. So, November could work, and ironically that is also the month last year when I crossed the line to becoming suicidal. We only have hot and rainy and hot and dry seasons. The weather is supposed to be good if I make it till then, hot and dry.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Mage
Mar 15, 2025
511
That's such a sweet thought. "What season". My brain just doesn't think of things like that. I would have to say... summer, so that there's no chance of complications from snow or ice, in case anyone has to drive anywhere. Such as to transport my body or if anyone shows up at my funeral.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Experienced
May 10, 2025
273
I wish for a cozy atmosphere with a fireplace and relaxing music
which is why I would prefer winter
 
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deathneutrality

deathneutrality

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Dec 19, 2023
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I have always wanted to die in winter. I find it more pleasant to imagine my dead body in winter than on a hot summer day. Someone close to me died in winter, so I think it would be nice to share the same scenery they did. I would like to stand outside one last time. The night would be almost bright from the skies light reflecting off the snow, creating a sparkling landscape and the silence that feels unique to a winter would settle in the night. The sharpness in the air seems more fitting for an end compared to the freshness of summer air. There is a calmness and sadness in winter, a sort of letting-go feeling. I like the coldness how it burns your skin. I don't know if I will ctb before winter I do plan on it but I love winter and it would be my preferred time to go.
not planning on commiting rn (also obv death doesnt have to be self inflicted)
DEFINITELY summer for me. Its my favorite season. I'd like to die outside in a forest preferably, so it would be great if someone found me v fast or v late so i dont cook like a stinky ham on a hot summer day. I love summer because theres so much going on and you can spend all day and all night outside without getting cold. In my perfect death day scenario id go on a long walk around the forest far into the night and maybe die in the early morning as the sun is coming up. Just a fantasy tho. Take care yall!
For me it's more the time of year if I had to choose. Decembers are not the greatest for me because January is looming around the corner and just the thought of doing it all over again usually gets to me. So, November could work, and ironically that is also the month last year when I crossed the line to becoming suicidal. We only have hot and rainy and hot and dry seasons. The weather is supposed to be good if I make it till then, hot and dry.
Im also always so depressed in december, one of the worst months for me right after february and march. Christmas and the "lets all pretend to be happy" vibe deffo doesnt help. So if i do commit it would most likely happen in winter as thats the season i """attempted"""" (half assed) a couple times and also was hospitalised.
 
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Griever

Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
462
I'm dying in June
 
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Mocha

Mocha

(Matcha)
Mar 17, 2025
28
Autumn, passing out in cozy clothes from OD'ing on SN laying in a pile of leaves while a cold wind blows on a 45° fall night sounds heavenly. I already have a nice spot to make it happen too.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
733
Summer or Fall. Definitely not winter because I live in Canada and my mourner will freeze to death during my burial.
 
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monetpompo

monetpompo

૮ • ﻌ - ა
Apr 21, 2025
167
summer has always been my least favorite and favorite season. i like the feeling of it because the heat and humidity reminds me of where i used to live, florida, but i associate summer with depression and no plans. i'd like to wander around aimlessly in a forest at night and seeing animals like deer and rabbits, before finding a tree to hang myself from. my friend's house was in a forested rural area, so he'd drive through all the trees with no lights. it felt like magic.

DEFINITELY summer for me. Its my favorite season. I love summer because theres so much going on and you can spend all day and all night outside without getting cold. In my perfect death day scenario id go on a long walk around the forest far into the night and maybe die in the early morning as the sun is coming up.
hard agree. i almost have the same exact fantasy lol
 
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ForsakenEcho

ForsakenEcho

maybe in another life
Jan 14, 2024
37
I come from a place where winter pretty much doesn't exist, but I absolutely love the cold!
So a chilly winter night or a cold quiet winter dawn would be the perfect kind of weather for me to go
 
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LastNite

LastNite

Hi
Mar 31, 2025
229
Cold winter. That's when my last attempt was although it was pretty childish and dumb (acetaminophen & Ibuprofen). That day it was supposed to snow but it didn't although it did later when I was in the hospital.
 
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Catchingdabus27

Enlightened
Dec 8, 2019
1,521
Hmm im not too sure this has me thinking if this winter was my last. It wasn't the best winter either so 🤔

I hate summer though so I think I'd prefer to ctb then. Kinda planning for that now shall see how it goes.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,966
I'm not too fussy. Autumn is my favourite season in a lot of ways. I don't want to be cold though. So, a warmer temperature would be good. I don't intend to die leaving the heating on.
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

Plenty of questions that no one has answers for.
Apr 22, 2025
193
Realistically? I'll die when I die.

But Winter would be my only pick if I had it in me.
 
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iwannabemyself

iwannabemyself

'cause later when i become addicted to life
May 18, 2025
7
Fall to be dead among the dead autumn leaves. I just want to see one last fall
 
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ReincarnatedGibbon

ReincarnatedGibbon

seed-sower
May 25, 2025
12
a warm late spring day, while it's raining. i would do it outside, and just let my body to return to the earth and nourish it.
it's actually that kind of day today, and while i don't plan on ctbing that soon (if at all. i've got serious stockholm syndrome with this whole "being alive" thing), i was sitting outside in the rain before, and i wish i could've just fallen asleep and never woken up. it would be so peaceful:)
 
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imtiredasf

Member
May 23, 2025
48
Rainy spring or early fall night. There's something incredibly comforting to me about rain. It washes everything clean, and keeps people inside. If you can handle it, you can go anywhere and see anything during a good storm without anyone or anything bothering you. It'd be lovely to see the changing leaves and gathering clouds as everything fades to black.
 
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LaetumCat

LaetumCat

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May 11, 2025
32
Probably any besides summer. For me, I just like when the date is "pretty" (I find certain numbers and number combinations nicer and prettier than other ones), or meaningful...
But in terms of practicality, spring. Its not too hot, and not too cold usually.
 
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Emerita

Emerita

My time is terminal
Jan 16, 2025
136
Probably any besides summer. For me, I just like when the date is "pretty" (I find certain numbers and number combinations nicer and prettier than other ones), or meaningful...
But in terms of practicality, spring. Its not too hot, and not too cold usually.

Im kinda like that with 'pretty' numbers. Reminds me of something about myself related to numbers. If you add the digits of my birth date (day/month/year) until you get a single digit, it equals 9. Therefore, I plan to ctb on a date that also reduces to 9.
 
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Karera

Karera

/ᐠ ◞ ᆺ ◟マ
Apr 20, 2025
28
The World is a cold, cold place.
 
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TheDevilsAngel

TheDevilsAngel

LetMeFree
Apr 22, 2019
827
January the first. The day of my birthday I always wanted to ctb that day I feel at peace going the same day I landed on this horrible planet.

Although I have to admit I wish my father had wanked me into the toilet😕 🤦😂
 
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