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L'absent

L'absent

Banned
Aug 18, 2024
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What are those thoughts that make you feel happy when you think about suicide? Those thoughts that make you different from a pro-lifer? That serenity that only the extreme gesture can give you. Tells.

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Alo97

Alo97

Member
Oct 25, 2024
30
just the end. i would like the world to forget me, as if i don't exist. this thought drives me. how is it with you?
 
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ren4215

ren4215

tired
Oct 7, 2024
7
being actually free. no emotions, no working, not having to function. anytime i think about ctb, i get a feeling of pure bliss which i don't feel with anything else. i don't want to cry anymore or do anything, i just want to be, and this is the only thing that will give me what i want
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,780
Freedom! No more pain or ego
 
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amerie

amerie

an earthworm sprinkled with salt
Oct 6, 2024
821
I have never been truly able to "relax", I'm always masking, even in front of my parents because I'm deathly afraid to stim in front of them because they panic and say that if I do that in public it'll be embarrassing for me, which I understand but it makes me angry how they'll shame me for neurodivergent traits I can't control, even in my own home. I have no safe space and it makes me feel trapped.

Of course there's more reasons, but I can finally stop pretending, and I can just rest.
What are those thoughts that make you feel happy when you think about suicide? Those thoughts that make you different from a pro-lifer? That serenity that only the extreme gesture can give you. Tells.

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Stop this is so real, I literally feel so happy and relaxed when I fantasize about taking the leap of faith off a bridge, no more pain, no more worries, just eternal rest. Sometimes (and ik this is corny,) I "practice" writing suicide letters in my notes folder just as a reminder to myself that even if life gets hard I can exit at any time.
 
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AuroraB

AuroraB

Experienced
Oct 20, 2024
239
no more worries about money, aging, political nightmares, war, climate collapse.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,602
Personally I'd be so relieved to never suffer in this cruel, torturous existence ever again, non-existence is all I personally hope and wish for, I only hope for peace from all the suffering and cruelty, I only wish for death as I just have no interest in suffering in this existence I always saw as such a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place, I'll always see it as a burden to suffer in this existence. For me non-existence is always preferable than prolonging the suffering just to be tortured and tormented by old age with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, I'd rather prevent suffering and in an existence that to me just caused so much suffering all for the sake of it, death truly would be the only relief for me, I just don't see it as desirable to suffer in this existence at all.
 
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marypary1234

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Nov 14, 2023
49
Freedom!
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
1,001
The mess I'll leave.
 
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SA1994EC

Member
Jan 28, 2021
292
No more suffering, no more pain, no more agony. The molecules, atoms, particles of me will be parts of everything in the Universe.
 
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ringo99

ringo99

Arcanist
Apr 18, 2023
497
I feel like I'm floating when I think about it. The thought that I'll never have to face any more shit in my life is just intoxicating. Greatest high in the world
 
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affirmatice

Student
Aug 31, 2024
148
Nothing about it makes me happy to be honest.

for me it's a sad, last resort, when I don't see any solutions to the problem that has made my life hell.

Doing it would also mean truly saying goodbye to the life I dreamed of and I worked so hard to try to reach.

It would mean saying goodbye to the amazing people in my life. That are amazing and that I love, but I have been unable to truly connect with recently due to the worsening of my mental state.

To me, it's a lose-lose situation. I wish no one had to choose between a life of suffering and a permanent end to their dreams, consciousness, and everything else that may be good in their life (even if they are unable to enjoy them).
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,810
No more tomorrows.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

Banned
Aug 18, 2024
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Nothing about it makes me happy to be honest.

for me it's a sad, last resort, when I don't see any solutions to the problem that has made my life hell.

Doing it would also mean truly saying goodbye to the life I dreamed of and I worked so hard to try to reach.

It would mean saying goodbye to the amazing people in my life. That are amazing and that I love, but I have been unable to truly connect with recently due to the worsening of my mental state.

To me, it's a lose-lose situation. I wish no one had to choose between a life of suffering and a permanent end to their dreams, consciousness, and everything else that may be good in their life (even if they are unable to enjoy them).
If you think this way you better abandon the idea of suicide. Suicide is joy, it is leaving the Nazi concentration camp, from the horror of life, with all its disgust. While you would regret leaving that camp. You don't see this disgusting thing. You actually want to improve your living conditions. In the end you love life.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
1. If I'm alive, I'm in harm's way. If I'm dead, I'm out of harm's way
2. The future is uncertain and has a lot of risks (this is something that even the most religious pro lifers are able to admit btw). If I'm dead, I will no longer be subjected to those risks
3. There is no reason to prolong my existence for another day or for even another second
4. The highs of pleasure (which are honestly just addictions designed to keep a human being alive for as long as possible) isn't as high as the magnitude of the depths of suffering.
5. I believe that an earlier death is always better than a later death since an earlier death means less suffering overall
6. This system of life and the system that humans have made are shitty and are not worth participating in
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,656

OP : What really makes you happy about committing suicide?


All my problems solved instantly and forever.

1 nano second After Death is non-existence forever. Non-existence forever means never any pain, suffering, problems, bad memories. What could be better than that? Nothing.

Non-existence forever is the ultimate bliss

Non-existence is a trillion times better than life and anything in it
 
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FlufflesAway

FlufflesAway

Student
Jul 31, 2024
101
I see... *takes notes*... a desire for control where non is felt... yes... *scribble scribble*. How can we give them the illusion of control whilst still abusing the fuck out of them... that's the question... Thanks for your participation. We value your valuable insights about the thoughts of self- professed suicidal ideattors. You're data is very valuable for us. We will steal it and use it some way to profit. We hope you kill yourself, eventually, but please give us some money first. And more data. Thank you.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,753
Life is just a never ending stream of things I don't particularly want to do. So, I'm looking forward to not having to do them or- not having to deal with the consequences of not doing them.
 
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sevennn

sevennn

Wizard
Sep 11, 2024
694
being safe from harm
 
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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
465
freedom, and no having to go through no more pain
 
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Trakehner

Trakehner

Student
Apr 22, 2023
134
All the pain will reach an end. Permanent freedom from this Hell.
 
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legoshi

legoshi

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Sep 3, 2024
116
the thought of never having to feel sad, lonely, inferior, not good enough, undesirable and to not constantly hate myself. I envision death like sleep where there is just nothing, I hope it is like that. I hope there is no afterlife. I just want to sleep forever and not know nothing. That gives me peace.
 
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ssspadbye

Member
Oct 21, 2024
54
Just free from this stress, pressure, worries, all the horrible things that could happen, from this horrible world of inequality, prejudice, judgement, unfairness. Just to not exist, to not have to do or go through a single other thing ever again. Do not be subject to any of the thing the world throws at me. To not feel this anxiety, depression, suffering, helplessness, sense of being stuck. All gone. The bliss of being free from it all. The only thing that would prevent me from doing it is if I won the lottery, as that would remove the majority of my problems and unlock a world of pleasure. But let's be honest, that's not happening. I'm not going to keep on suffering endlessly for a 1 in 40 million chance of being freed from it living. And even after all this struggling and suffering, I'd be dead anyway in a few decades. So in the long term, it doesn't even matter. I just want to be freed. Freed with the bliss of nothing.
 
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Vivir_O_No

Student
Dec 10, 2023
118
What are those thoughts that make you feel happy when you think about suicide? Those thoughts that make you different from a pro-lifer? That serenity that only the extreme gesture can give you. Tells.

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Freedom from everything. From the chains of existence. Seeing life as the big lie it is, I want to live in truth, and that truth is non-existence!
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,172
That all my suffering is finally over and all the problems are no longer relevant, non-sentience is the best state to be in, the lack of pleasure and also lack of torment.
 
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Chaosire

Chaosire

Literally insane, legally speaking
Sep 23, 2024
134
Finally done with suffering.
No more stress and anxiety for an unstable future.
All my problems getting solved with this one action.
No longer having to fear I'll endanger or hurt others again.

Just.. rest. Finally some fucking rest
 
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leavingsoonx

leavingsoonx

Headed to the other side
Sep 22, 2024
118
No more bullying. No more melted brain of mine. No more suffering. No more being disabled but not really even being disabled.
 
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darknessishere

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Oct 22, 2024
17
No more pain or emotions pure nothingness
 
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Tombs_in_your_eyes

Tombs_in_your_eyes

Probably crying
Oct 18, 2024
128
Forgetting the trauma of my favorite person dying of a horrific terminal disease.

Being free of the crushing weight of knowing I'll never see them again.

And - who knows - I might get to reunite with them after death. Even the slimmest possibility of that happening makes CTB 1000000x more appealing than living without them.
 
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RainyDaysGrapefruit

Member
Apr 27, 2023
19
No longer burdening others, and becoming the splatter on the floor they wanted. And best of all, being able to finally take a god damn nap.

It doesn't even really give me happiness either, it really is sad my life turned out this way. But things happen, I spose.
 

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