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keat6890

Member
Mar 6, 2025
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I have been suffering from depression about 9 years now, and i can't take this pain anymore, I'm so tired and lost... I don't know what to do.
I hate my life. I hate life.
 
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IdentityDoe

IdentityDoe

What is freedom when demanded of you by a God?
Jan 14, 2026
32
Honestly speaking, a Shotgun seems like the fastest and "least painful" but that depends on whether or not you hit the right place, which is luck based. You can still survive this so it's not even guaranteed. Hydrogen Cyanide will knock you out in under 30 seconds, and kill you in less than 5 minutes, so technically it's one of the most lethal ways to CTB without much pain.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,111
I really understand, I just always find it so torturous to suffer in this cruel, dreadful existence, all I've ever hoped for is to permanently cease existing and never suffer again, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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a65b

Mors certa, hora incerta
Jan 31, 2026
60
i od once on heroin, it was pretty peaceful so maybe that. especially if you shoot it up. you just start feeling very sleepy and you only realise whats going on right before blacking out. no panic at all and i dont remember it hurting in any way. felt like absolute shit after being brought back tho
 
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kufajoy

kufajoy

Misfit
Nov 6, 2025
229
There are many methods too.
Mine peaceful method is propofol+kcl
 
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prompt_critical

On the banks of the Rubicon
Jan 11, 2026
66
If you're American I don't think it's easy to fail or suffer with a gun if you don't aim up
 
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jonoldak

jonoldak

The uncertainty itself is within me!
Dec 18, 2025
35
Hanging with the right instructions. I have experience and can say that it is as quick and painless as if it were a dream. And it is so effective that it is even a little scary.
 
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asthedayends00

flyingtourist
Oct 18, 2024
193
Definitely not hanging lol.. that is unless you're hanging from the gallows
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,173
Hanging with the right instructions. I have experience and can say that it is as quick and painless as if it were a dream. And it is so effective that it is even a little scary.
Oh, how I wish this were true. Maybe it is. I've never committed to FSH. It's possible I'd be out quick.
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
155
I'm not so sure there is a painless, risk-free way
1. So many people here tout SN (sodium nitrite), but recently a member here live posted as he took it. He said it worked quick. Then he said it was like sh*t and he was sweating, his insides were burning, and he had a hard time breathing.
2. I've heard of the CO (carbon monoxide) method failing. Plus there's the risk of fire with it.
3. I live in the USA. In my state, I could walk in a store and walk right out with a gun. But what if I don't aim properly? Even an inch off could cause to feel immense pain or leave me permanently disabled.

I recently talked to a therapist about CTB. (I truthfully told her I had only been researching was in no immediate danger of doing it.) She told me she has had people who had "woken up" from all kinds of failed attempts.

I joined this site to research an easy way to CTB in case I ever got unemployed and AI made it impossible to find work. I was very discouraged that there isn't a quick and easy guaranteed way to CTB. It disturbs me when I think about that.
 
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Riven

Member
Oct 24, 2025
51
if the only factors you are considering are speed and least pain, id say guns are a good bet. aside from that if you don't care about others theres options like jumping off a tall (50+ feet) building, getting hit by a train, etc. personally i dont see these methods as viable because i dont want to harm others with my death, or at least do my best to mitigate the damage.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Mage
Nov 12, 2025
557
I'm not so sure there is a painless, risk-free way
1. So many people here tout SN (sodium nitrite), but recently a member here live posted as he took it. He said it worked quick. Then he said it was like sh*t and he was sweating, his insides were burning, and he had a hard time breathing.
2. I've heard of the CO (carbon monoxide) method failing. Plus there's the risk of fire with it.
3. I live in the USA. In my state, I could walk in a store and walk right out with a gun. But what if I don't aim properly? Even an inch off could cause to feel immense pain or leave me permanently disabled.

I recently talked to a therapist about CTB. (I truthfully told her I had only been researching was in no immediate danger of doing it.) She told me she has had people who had "woken up" from all kinds of failed attempts.

I joined this site to research an easy way to CTB in case I ever got unemployed and AI made it impossible to find work. I was very discouraged that there isn't a quick and easy guaranteed way to CTB. It disturbs me when I think about that.
Guns were the only method I considered at first, after I looked at the statistics. But the more I thought about it, I realized just how wrong that could go. My plan A is now nitrogen, which seems to me to be the most painless option, but that's highly technique dependent, and if one small thing is done wrong or goes wrong, it won't work. My plan B is sn, but it sounds like it might be a rough 10-20 minutes or so before consciousness is lost. It would be ideal if I could combine plan A and plan B, but since vomiting is so common with sn, that would not be so great with an exit bag.
 
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pax420

Member
Jan 19, 2026
50
I accidentally od'ed on fentanyl I was dead for 5 minutes before they brought me back. It was the most peaceful relaxing thing I have ever felt. I plans on using in a couple months when I catch my own bus. Whatever method you choose to ctb make sure it's what you really want and make sure you plan it out right. You could end up a lot worse off than now.
 
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Deer_Dairy

Member
Jan 19, 2026
48
It depends on your possibilities.
I can quite safely say explosives blown at the head. I have experience with injury cause by explosives and it do not hurt at all. At least for first few minutes...
 
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keat6890

Member
Mar 6, 2025
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Honestly speaking, a Shotgun seems like the fastest and "least painful" but that depends on whether or not you hit the right place, which is luck based. You can still survive this so it's not even guaranteed. Hydrogen Cyanide will knock you out in under 30 seconds, and kill you in less than 5 minutes, so technically it's one of the most lethal ways to CTB without much pain.
But i don't know where i can find hydrgen cyanide here in my country.
The sale is controlled by law, as it is a toxic product
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
155
I accidentally od'ed on fentanyl I was dead for 5 minutes before they brought me back. It was the most peaceful relaxing thing I have ever felt. I plans on using in a couple months when I catch my own bus. Whatever method you choose to ctb make sure it's what you really want and make sure you plan it out right. You could end up a lot worse off than now.
How does one obtain fentanyl?
 
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aRose

Tired AF
Jan 18, 2026
291
I accidentally od'ed on fentanyl I was dead for 5 minutes before they brought me back. It was the most peaceful relaxing thing I have ever felt. I plans on using in a couple months when I catch my own bus. Whatever method you choose to ctb make sure it's what you really want and make sure you plan it out right. You could end up a lot worse off than now.
Do you prep it like you would heroin? The whole spoon, water, and lighter set up? I used to shoot heroin but I don't know if fent is done that same way or not.
 
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Uncounted1846

Member
Jan 17, 2026
54
I accidentally od'ed on fentanyl I was dead for 5 minutes before they brought me back. It was the most peaceful relaxing thing I have ever felt. I plans on using in a couple months when I catch my own bus. Whatever method you choose to ctb make sure it's what you really want and make sure you plan it out right. You could end up a lot worse off than now.
Do you remember anything about what it was like when you were dead? Or is it just darkness and nothingness?
 
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pax420

Member
Jan 19, 2026
50
Do you prep it like you would heroin? The whole spoon, water, and lighter set up? I used to shoot heroin but I don't know if fent is done that same way or not.
No lol it's actually kind of boring. You really just need water and a cotton. I used to do heroin and the preparation was half of the addiction but fent is a lot easier. If it's good enough you can just smoke it on tin foil until you pass out by then it's usually enough. I've had to narcan people quite a few times from smoking and even snorting. When I od'ed I was shooting it and it was a very very small amount. I wasn't trying to ctb but my friends hit me with narcan three times before I came around. I wish they would have left me to die.
Do you remember anything about what it was like when you were dead? Or is it just darkness and nothingness?
I just remember going out and when they narcaned me I remembered it felt like they were pulling me by arms out of a dark hole.i didn't even know I was dead until they told me. I was laughing and feeling very peaceful, but when I fully came around I cussed them for bringing me back. I feel more darkness, emptyness, and nothingness here and now. I'm just waiting on spring to get here then I'm doing it alone by myself on purpose.
 
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AnonymousL

Arcanist
Apr 5, 2023
431
I'm not so sure there is a painless, risk-free way
1. So many people here tout SN (sodium nitrite), but recently a member here live posted as he took it. He said it worked quick. Then he said it was like sh*t and he was sweating, his insides were burning, and he had a hard time breathing.
SN is for sure no joke.
Done a lot of research on it. Seen some videos, had people timestamp everything..

It's scary but it will do the job hopefully
 
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Nightingale93

Nightingale93

Member
Jan 13, 2026
28
That would probably be the exit bag in my opinion. It's physically painless, but you might start having thoughts while using it and thus might have emotional pain.
A firearm is relatively instantaneous, I'm not sure if you feel that physical pain at the end or not. Though it will leave a mess and that might scar whoever finds you.
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
155
SN is for sure no joke.
Done a lot of research on it. Seen some videos, had people timestamp everything..

It's scary but it will do the job hopefully
Finding it is next to impossible. Many people have posted about a Web site where you can get it from the Ukraine. I've searched high and low and cannot find this Web site. I'm usually good at finding things like that.
 
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Nightingale93

Member
Jan 13, 2026
28
Finding it is next to impossible. Many people have posted about a Web site where you can get it from the Ukraine. I've searched high and low and cannot find this Web site. I'm usually good at finding things like that.
Yeah and even then, it'll probably get seized during shipping, unless you have a permit or a lab license.
 
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Leaving1970

Member
Jul 19, 2025
21
Guns were the only method I considered at first, after I looked at the statistics. But the more I thought about it, I realized just how wrong that could go. My plan A is now nitrogen, which seems to me to be the most painless option, but that's highly technique dependent, and if one small thing is done wrong or goes wrong, it won't work. My plan B is sn, but it sounds like it might be a rough 10-20 minutes or so before consciousness is lost. It would be ideal if I could combine plan A and plan B, but since vomiting is so common with sn, that would not be so great with an exit bag.
I'm thinking gun. I don't see how a .357 with hollow-point ammo in the mouth aimed up, say, 30-45 degrees can fail. But, I do wonder????
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Experienced
Sep 10, 2025
203
I'm thinking gun. I don't see how a .357 with hollow-point ammo in the mouth aimed up, say, 30-45 degrees can fail. But, I do wonder????
I'm still considering 12G shotgun.... I did order SN.... Debating between the 2 methods. The 12G will be quicker but much messier.... I'm not sure that I want to put my family through that vision.
 
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Spite

Spite

Nil Desperandum.
Aug 20, 2025
247
A shotgun to the head should do the trick as long as you don't fuck up the aim. Unfortunately, not everyone has access to that though.
 
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Leaving1970

Member
Jul 19, 2025
21
I'm still considering 12G shotgun.... I did order SN.... Debating between the 2 methods. The 12G will be quicker but much messier.... I'm not sure that I want to put my family through that vision.
For whatever messed up reason, I feel more at ease with the 357, maybe it's having used a handgun much more than a shotgun. I'd almost want to go shoot the shotgun a handful of times first. If that makes any sense at all.

As far as messy, my plan was a seldom used park, probably would be found that day, but not immediately. That way, let the law enforcement find me, not family being the first ones there. Try to lesson the trauma . . .
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
669
Hanging with the right instructions. I have experience and can say that it is as quick and painless as if it were a dream. And it is so effective that it is even a little scary.
How can a person who hangs himself fully prevent the pain he will feel in the first seconds while still conscious? If those 15 seconds of pain wouldn't exist I think nearly everyone would choose that method.
 
Sans

Sans

Protesting the conditions of an inhumane world
Oct 2, 2019
354
Hydrogen Cyanide will knock you out in under 30 seconds, and kill you in less than 5 minutes, so technically it's one of the most lethal ways to CTB without much pain.
Where the fuck do I acquire hydrogen cyanide?
 
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