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I am weighing 65 kg and I will take 30 milligram of SN. I am going to be at home because I am bedridden and will try it at night in a different room. I will lock the room from inside and I am estimating it won't take more than an hour for me to be discovered and somebody will try to break it. Can I die within an hour question mark I have actually begged family to let me die so they know about my suicidal thoughts. I have no hope of recovery and have chronic pain and have also no hope of dying very soon because this disease does not kill. I have been diagnosed with pudendal Neuralgia
 
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Mr2005

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Ideally one second but then ideally we wouldn't be in this position.
 
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WornOutLife

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It took 30 minutes to the person I saw die by SN but I've heard it could take more.
 
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Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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I am weighing 65 kg and I will take 30 milligram of SN. I am going to be at home because I am bedridden and will try it at night in a different room. I will lock the room from inside and I am estimating it won't take more than an hour for me to be discovered and somebody will try to break it. Can I die within an hour question mark I have actually begged family to let me die so they know about my suicidal thoughts. I have no hope of recovery and have chronic pain and have also no hope of dying very soon because this disease does not kill. I have been diagnosed with pudendal Neuralgia
30 miligrams is too small an amount for a human and won't do anything. Did you mean 30 grams?
 
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sadworld

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Aug 25, 2020
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I would recommed to go for 25g not 30mg.
 
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degeneratewaste

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Aug 24, 2020
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if you weigh 65kg, you will want to go for 20-25g of SN. assuming you meant 30 grams, this is too much. however, if you are in the house with family the noise you make from vomiting will wake people up, I would not recommend trying this in this setting, because you will get found, and probably sent to a psych ward. even if you are successful in keeping quiet (which you won't be), getting found within an hour will mean that you will be taken to hospital and it will likely be reversed.
 
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if you weigh 65kg, you will want to go for 20-25g of SN. assuming you meant 30 grams, this is too much. however, if you are in the house with family the noise you make from vomiting will wake people up, I would not recommend trying this in this setting, because you will get found, and probably sent to a psych ward. even if you are successful in keeping quiet (which you won't be), getting found within an hour will mean that you will be taken to hospital and it will likely be reversed.
Is the vomiting that bad ?
 
NA90

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Can you hear the wolf cry in a moonlight night?
Nov 1, 2020
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Yes, it was a livestream. He died after 30 minutes but it only took him 10 to lose consciousness
Your brave by the way. I wouldn't have the guts to do it. A big hug. Hope you ok after seeing that.
 
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degeneratewaste

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Aug 24, 2020
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But what if you have 48 hours metoclopramide regime? You should not vomit.
I witnessed a friend ctb on livestream the other day who did the 48h meto routine and he vomited. doesnt matter whether you take meto or not it is 99% likely you will vomit.
 
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WornOutLife

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Eyes closed or open? That's what I'm afraid of.


I don't know because he fell in a direction in which his face couldn't be seen anymore but I think they were closed.
 
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Caspers

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Jun 23, 2020
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It is suggested to not be found within the first four hours as a minimum, so maybe that's the longest it's taken? The majority of cases aren't recorded to the very end (usually lose contact after passing out) so I really don't know.
 
degeneratewaste

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I don't know because he fell in a direction in which his face couldn't be seen anymore but I think they were closed.
the person I watched passed with their eyes open.
 
HorribleFeelings1

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Its a hard knock life
Jan 18, 2020
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My experience, about an hour
 
NA90

NA90

Can you hear the wolf cry in a moonlight night?
Nov 1, 2020
116
the person I watched passed with their eyes open.
That's right it was you I think I saw the documentation of the Ctb. That's why i asked on this thread. Thank you.
 

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