What do you think of staying away of friends on purpose?

[Zer0]

Few weeks ago i tried to see what would happen to my feelings if i avoid every person that care for me. I failed after 2 weeks for reasons, but in those 2 weeks i felt incredibly in control and not as bad as usual. I had some really bad days too but less frequently and now that i'm back to "normal" i feel like everything is worse tha before that experiment. What do you think of that? (Probably it's full of grammatical errors, not used to write in english, sorry)

 

[Fallen bad23]

I have been ghosting friends for 10 years now. At first you feel great and it feels like you it is your choice to stop seeing these people, but as time goes by things get worse, much worse. It feels lonely, I can no longer talk about what I feel nor describe it proberly. It also feels like I'm a bad person and a bad friend. It has become a habit that I fail my friends. If you can try to tell those you trust how you feel before it is too late.
(Sorry if it makes no sense but this is my my experience)

 

[Zer0]

I have been ghosting friends for 10 years now. At first you feel great and it feels like you it is your choice to stop seeing these people, but as time goes by things get worse, much worse. It feels lonely, I can no longer talk about what I feel nor describe it proberly. It also feels like I'm a bad person and a bad friend. It has become a habit that I fail my friends. If you can try to tell those you trust how you feel before it is too late.
(Sorry if it makes no sense but this is my my experience)

It really makes sense. One of my friends had a experience like yours and he talked to me about it when i started to try to get away from him but i kind of accepted it, the only thing in my mind sometimes is that i will have no one at some point in my life because of my crazy random shit, so i tried to get away from everyone to see how my future will be like. Even if it was hard i think i could live like that but one of my closest friend ( a girl i really like, we already tried to date but i fucked every thing )is goind through some hard times so i need to try to help her even knowing that i wont be able to do it. Now my goal is to finish college and move from home so i can really be all alone, not a single soul around. I am a open book with my friends so they both knew what i was trying, and the guy that had a experience like yours know how i feel about him because he is my first really close friend and i said it to him a few times, the girl probably know i like her but i dont have the guts to tell her, im afraid i will mess with her head even more (it hurts liking her but not be able to tell her but i dont care about me as much as i care about her ).
Also this is my first post so thanks for replying <3 S2

 

[Fallen bad23]

I wish I could help. Hopefully in the near future everything works out for you and you don't have worry that much anymore:)

 

[Zer0]

Thanks. You read about my feelings so you are already helping. Hope we both find the good days that was promised to us since we were born.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Few weeks ago i tried to see what would happen to my feelings if i avoid every person that care for me. I failed after 2 weeks for reasons, but in those 2 weeks i felt incredibly in control and not as bad as usual. I had some really bad days too but less frequently and now that i'm back to "normal" i feel like everything is worse tha before that experiment. What do you think of that? (Probably it's full of grammatical errors, not used to write in english, sorry)

Mind me asking why you say you "felt incredibly in control and not as bad as usual"? Whenever I tried distancing myself from others, all I learned was what I knew in my gut: that I didn't matter to anyone. Now it's just me and the mold growing on the windowsill in my bathroom.

 

[Zer0]

Mind me asking why you say you "felt incredibly in control and not as bad as usual"? Whenever I tried distancing myself from others, all I learned was what I knew in my gut: that I didn't matter to anyone. Now it's just me and the mold growing on the windowsill in my bathroom.

On the first week one of my friends ( the girl i mentioned ) lost her phone so we lost our main source of comunication, so i really kept away from the people in my house, and in that time i had some hard lonely time but not as much as usual. The control part is because i normally express my frustrations phisically like swearing ( in a way beyond my will ) or giving the middle finger to the walls/ceiling, but in that time i could hold that inside of my head and not "materialize" my problems. This control felt good
Ps: Sorry for taking too long to answer, i was playing skyrim to try to not think about anything