
cookiencream
Phantom tripple crown
- Jul 26, 2025
- 100
I don't think anything I could say would truly lessen the blow of all this, but the least I can do is explain myself. For a very, very long time I've struggled with feeling empty and depressed. Even when my life improved or the situation changed, the symptoms never went away they only became less at times. I suspect I may have a chronic mental illness of sorts, but I'll never truly know. Please know that this is a decision I carefully thought out. To those who care about me, there was nothing you could have done. It wasn't a lack of love or support it's just how I've been feeling. And I've been feeling this way for a long time. In fact, the reason I held out so long was due to those I hold dear but recently I realized I can't use another person as my will to live. Human relationships are temporary and end one way or another, often painfully. I can pour my soul into making them last but there's never a guarantee. Again, this is just an expression of my limits as a person. It's not anyone's fault. Only mine. My biggest regret was telling some people about my previous attempt. I just made the suffering worse for you guys. I'm really really sorry. Please live your lives as if I never existed.
This is the rough draft. I really don't know what to put....I plan on posting it through my socials as individual messages may be...challenging.
This is the rough draft. I really don't know what to put....I plan on posting it through my socials as individual messages may be...challenging.