What are you looking forward to right now?

[WitheringAway]

In all honesty, there's a certain family member who's been a terrible person and caused me a lot of pain and suffering. I can feel that their death is near and I'm looking forward to it. Sorry if this seems harsh but she put me through hell and made everyone hates me. Can't wait for her to be gone forever.

 

[Squiddy]

I'm looking forward to when my time is up (not sure when that'll be yet if I'll ever decide to go through with it because I'm too much of a coward to do it :( )

 

[Good4Nothing]

In all honesty, there's a certain family member who's been a terrible person and caused me a lot of pain and suffering. I can feel that their death is near and I'm looking forward to it. Sorry if this seems harsh but she put me through hell and made everyone hates me. Can't wait for her to be gone forever.

I had a sister like that. I know where you're coming from.

I'm looking forward to when everyone else is asleep. That's always been when I feel most alive, most like myself.

 

[WitheringAway]

I had a sister like that. I know where you're coming from.

I'm looking forward to when everyone else is asleep. That's always been when I feel most alive, most like myself.

Same. The only time I like the people I'm surrounded by is when they're quiet and asleep

 

[Sensei]

What I'm looking forward to is very banal in comparison. I'm looking forward to Dune 2020. (I guess that says something about my life...)

 

[wanttodie]

I'm looking forward ending my life

 

[sadghost]

Sleep lol

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

It's almost 4:00 am on Sunday morning here.
I'm looking forward to eventually falling asleep; to my dog waking me up by licking my face in a few hours; to finishing the first "Harry Potter" book for the tenth time (65 pages to go); to seeing my goddaughters one last time; to my new batch of SN getting delivered next week.

 

[XYZ]

I look forward to dying.

 

[Sinai Silence]

I'm looking forward to September, the month I'll hopefully ctb successfully.

 

[TrailerTrash]

Finishing the ReBreather guide to help others ..... then dying ....

 

[Flump]

Dying and sleeping forever

 

[WitheringAway]

It's almost 4:00 am on Sunday morning here.
I'm looking forward to eventually falling asleep; to my dog waking me up by licking my face in a few hours; to finishing the first "Harry Potter" book for the tenth time (65 pages to go); to seeing my goddaughters one last time; to my new batch of SN getting delivered next week.

I imagined every detail you wrote. Love u and hope all is well with you xx

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Tv show wise, I'm looking forward most to all the Marvel shows that are supposed to come to Disney Plus. I also want to see how future South Park episodes manage to handle the pandemic next season (if it even comes out). Also also I wanna see Rick and Morty season 5.

Movie wise I am most excited for Jurassic World 3 since I actually enjoyed the last two movies. I also really want to see the future MCU and Pixar movies that have been announced.

Video games are kind of lacking though...I'm a huge Nintendo fan yet I don't really play any Mario games so yesterday's announcements did nothing for me. I guess I can look forward to five more characters coming to Smash Ultimate, the Crown Tundra expansion for Pokémon Sword and Shield, New Pokémon Snap, and Jurassic World Evolution coming to the Switch in November.

Sometimes it's really the things like this that are the only things keeping me alive.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i'm looking forward to rescheduling my doctor's appointment, so i can finally get some antiemetics.

i'm also looking forward to my birthday (hopefully it'll be my last), and the winter/fall in general.

 

[WitheringAway]

Tv show wise, I'm looking forward most to all the Marvel shows that are supposed to come to Disney Plus. I also want to see how future South Park episodes manage to handle the pandemic next season (if it even comes out). Also also I wanna see Rick and Morty season 5.

Movie wise I am most excited for Jurassic World 3 since I actually enjoyed the last two movies. I also really want to see the future MCU and Pixar movies that have been announced.

Video games are kind of lacking though...I'm a huge Nintendo fan yet I don't really play any Mario games so yesterday's announcements did nothing for me. I guess I can look forward to five more characters coming to Smash Ultimate, the Crown Tundra expansion for Pokémon Sword and Shield, New Pokémon Snap, and Jurassic World Evolution coming to the Switch in November.

Sometimes it's really the things like this that are the only things keeping me alive.

I'm glad you can find meaning in those things. I'll admit I felt your excitement reading your post xx

i'm looking forward to rescheduling my doctor's appointment, so i can finally get some antiemetics.

i'm also looking forward to my birthday (hopefully it'll be my last), and the winter/fall in general.

Happy birthday. Winter triggers my depression but I love fall. Reminds me of that song by girl in red "we fell in love in October.. that's why.. I love fall.. looking at the stars.. admiring from afar"

 

[PrettyStupid.]

Pizza, coffee and red bull.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Looking forward to getting into bed tonight and going to my dreams where I am free.

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

I'm looking forward to my SN test, pipettes, and distilled water arriving:) - (should be 10th-15th for all deliveries).

I'm looking forward to a party on the 21st because it really feels like my last big social event and I wanna try and appreciate it all and all my friends (cbt seems really soon). I'm incredibly anxious but I'm gonna force myself to go and do my best - I can do it, it's just really hard:)

ummmm, I really can't think of anything else. Nothing I'm looking forward to, but there will be nice moments still (e.g. with family). Maybe I'll be around for some big UFC fights like Costa vs Adesanya:)

 

[Wayfaerer]

Seeing my escort again. Also the buddies I hang out with every saturday night. Other than that, death by SN.

Looking forward to getting into bed tonight and going to my dreams where I am free.

I wanted to stay off SSRI's for this reason because the nights where I dream are the best and I can't seem to have those when I am on them. If I could dream every night then my quality of life would be substantially higher than it is now. I'd want to sleep all of the time!

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Seeing my escort again. Also the buddies I hang out with every saturday night. Other than that, death by SN.


I wanted to stay off SSRI's for this reason because the nights where I dream are the best and I can't seem to have those when I am on them. If I could dream every night then my quality of life would be substantially higher than it is now. I'd want to sleep all of the time!

why do you think dreaming has that effect on you?

 

[Wayfaerer]

why do you think dreaming has that effect on you?

When I dream, they tend to be intense. I've had the craziest dreams of my life in 2019 and I would wish to have them more frequently. It's like living a separate life than the one I am trapped in now. They're usually complete nonsense and describing them would be difficult but it's somewhere different. A different place. A different time. Usually invoking feelings of nostalgia. I want to live there and not here.

One of those dreams was so crazy that I wrote it down when I woke up and I've never done that before because I was afraid of forgetting it. It... didn't have a very good ending I admit BUT the vividness of it was so intense! It was like VR with ultra resolution. and shockingly most of all it was the consistency of it as my dreams tend to meander. I've had some other good ones too but that one was the craziest of them all for sure.

I don't get to dream often, though. I usually end up waking early because drug withdrawal sets in at the 12 hr mark and I have to take more and once I'm up I don't like going back to bed. It's really nice when it happens though.