Well, I have everything I need

[mmmm187]

As the title says, I really do have everything I need to CTB. Have SN, have Quetiapine to act as the antiemetic. Also have propranolol.

Guess I am not quite ready to do it. Late last year I came very close, ended up checking myself into psych ward and ended up spending a fortnight. Found it strangely relaxing to have no responsibilities.

Still have the feeling that ultimately I will CTB though, like it is inevitable that I will end up doing it.

 

[HelloHell]

i understand what you mean. i also came very close end of last year and was sent into psych ward. It was strangely fulfilling to exist in this world and not having to worry about responsibilities. but yea i still have the feeling that i will ctb in the end, just a matter of when.

good for you to have everything ready. having everything ready brings some kind of peace by itself, at least that's how it is for me

 

[OminousVaL]

Likewise, so far I am just patiently waiting for whenever the time feels right.

 

[Time to fly]

Jealous you all have SN...can't get it in UK...will just have to keep looking for alternatives or go with plan A jumping after lockdown ends