I had a dream that I was sitting on the bus last night. The other people pulled out glocks and started shooting out the window. The driver kept gong like it was another Thursday. I just leaned my head down. I announced that I was a PSFA medic. So if anyone got shot I could treat them. I wasn't too happy. Then I saw someone from my former unit. He is someone I consider a brother. I haven't talked to him in years. He abandoned me like I knew he would.
What a bus ride.
That's the crappy dream I had.
I plan on killing myself in March, if I don't get hired by this Fire Department I applied for. I've watched so many people put in less years, less work, have criminal history and still easily get this job. While I have worked much longer and have no criminal history. Everywhere I've worked, I'm usually the hardest worker. What did that get me in the end? More hard work, no reward, and even a bunch of complaints. I mean shit, you work your ass off in this world, no one gives fuck. You do average or subpar work you get everything. Then people wonder why someone shoots up a place every other week. You punish nice people, then reward the bad people. 'Power comes to those willing to lower themselves to pick it up. " I've had thoughts of taking back all the good I have done for humanity. Not due to to getting rewards or salvation for my work. It's for the complaints and punishments for being good. ( it's the children that could get hurt that keep me from becoming an arsonist. I have the skills in fire to do it. I could cause a lot of damage on a dry windy day If I felt like. it. But the children's safety is more in important than my stupid feelings. It don't take much to start a forest fire and burn down a whole town.) But it takes a whole lot to get a career in preventing them. That's why this world is fucked up.
Adolf Hitler wanted to be an artist and despised politics in his early life. What did the world do to him? They said fuck off you cant be an artist. So he went on and the rest is history.
You take anything from this rant. If you see a mother fucker not doing anything wrong, leave that motherfucker alone or FAFO.
I have single handedly held 200 plus acres of fire. I can predict weather patterns and read the line like its second nature. I can locate hotspots like nothing. But fuck that.
Fuck me, Fuck you, and Fuck this. With no animosity. Cause it's all meaningless anyway.
There's a high rate of suicide amongst first responders and military. Holy shit the bullshit evil that you see in those fields.
All the fires I put out, were just for the kids. Especially the foster kids. Fuck the adults. Yall can all eat my ass and burn.
What a bus ride.
That's the crappy dream I had.
I plan on killing myself in March, if I don't get hired by this Fire Department I applied for. I've watched so many people put in less years, less work, have criminal history and still easily get this job. While I have worked much longer and have no criminal history. Everywhere I've worked, I'm usually the hardest worker. What did that get me in the end? More hard work, no reward, and even a bunch of complaints. I mean shit, you work your ass off in this world, no one gives fuck. You do average or subpar work you get everything. Then people wonder why someone shoots up a place every other week. You punish nice people, then reward the bad people. 'Power comes to those willing to lower themselves to pick it up. " I've had thoughts of taking back all the good I have done for humanity. Not due to to getting rewards or salvation for my work. It's for the complaints and punishments for being good. ( it's the children that could get hurt that keep me from becoming an arsonist. I have the skills in fire to do it. I could cause a lot of damage on a dry windy day If I felt like. it. But the children's safety is more in important than my stupid feelings. It don't take much to start a forest fire and burn down a whole town.) But it takes a whole lot to get a career in preventing them. That's why this world is fucked up.
Adolf Hitler wanted to be an artist and despised politics in his early life. What did the world do to him? They said fuck off you cant be an artist. So he went on and the rest is history.
You take anything from this rant. If you see a mother fucker not doing anything wrong, leave that motherfucker alone or FAFO.
I have single handedly held 200 plus acres of fire. I can predict weather patterns and read the line like its second nature. I can locate hotspots like nothing. But fuck that.
Fuck me, Fuck you, and Fuck this. With no animosity. Cause it's all meaningless anyway.
There's a high rate of suicide amongst first responders and military. Holy shit the bullshit evil that you see in those fields.
All the fires I put out, were just for the kids. Especially the foster kids. Fuck the adults. Yall can all eat my ass and burn.
