murdstah
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- May 19, 2023
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i am little high rn and this is my first time making a post, but ima try :)
so i have been doing awful in school recently, failing all finals and just never paying attention. I started using marijuana frequently about 5 months ago, but for the past few weeks i have been using a lot of weed every day.
I have had suicidal thougts all my life but i was never serious about it. i used to be more like a smart funny popular kid but now i only have a few friends that dont even really like me. I am not motivated to do anything anymore. I also live like shit and my entire house is a mess and i have a big ass family. i am terrified of the thought of ctb and terrified of death in general. ive never tried to seek help because i dont want anyone to know. I think this is really embarrasing and i really dont wanna tell anyone about how i feel
i have also been watching lots of gore and suicide videos online and i hate how i look so much bro
so i have been doing awful in school recently, failing all finals and just never paying attention. I started using marijuana frequently about 5 months ago, but for the past few weeks i have been using a lot of weed every day.
I have had suicidal thougts all my life but i was never serious about it. i used to be more like a smart funny popular kid but now i only have a few friends that dont even really like me. I am not motivated to do anything anymore. I also live like shit and my entire house is a mess and i have a big ass family. i am terrified of the thought of ctb and terrified of death in general. ive never tried to seek help because i dont want anyone to know. I think this is really embarrasing and i really dont wanna tell anyone about how i feel
i have also been watching lots of gore and suicide videos online and i hate how i look so much bro
