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BBY

BBY

Done for.
Feb 18, 2023
91
Back then, you laughed when i told you about my problem
About my addiction to the blade
You told me, "Those aren't deep."
I wonder,
What would've been deep enough?
What would convince you of my suffering?
Should the blade cut deep enough so that my skin would refuse to stay together?
Slicing through a layer so that the one below would be exposed?
Would that sight convince you, i wonder,
Or perhaps deeper,
They would never close up on its own and bleed freely,
Leaving what's within me for all to see?
That red flowing through my veins spilling until there is no more left?
Maybe, just maybe,
You were more interested in me etching these wounds into my heart and soul,
Alongside the ones you carved into me.
Where they would neither heal nor rot,
Never to leave
So that even when this body dies, they will stay
Is this your form of love?
Giving me something i could keep beyond the grave?
A pain and suffering that will follow me every step of the way,
Not knowing why or how,
Forever feeling a heaviness in my chest
Is that the point of a mother daughter relationship,
I wonder,
Is this love?

This sounded cooler in my head but oh well
 
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kinderbueno

kinderbueno

Waiting at the bus stop
Jun 22, 2024
261
This hits close to home, especially the line "You were more interested in me etching these wounds into my and soul", it perfectly sums up how I feel about my relationship with my mum
Overall this is a very relatable poem and I like it a lot
 
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spiraloutdeath

Member
Jun 10, 2024
37
Nice poem " A pain and suffering that will follow me every step of the way" relatable :)

I thought i would write something on the spot ..

New Me

You don't know what you have
Until it fades away and reveals real darkness
Days no longer greet you smile
Your sun burned out long ago
As you navigate the hazy ashes left behind

Before you were ill you could feel your soul
Now its a stranger weeping at a grave
You are the tombstone, your mind trapped in a casket underground screaming let me live

Now a door presents itself
Do you step inside and release
Your mind from this pain
Or stand waiting to make a choice..
 

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