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Kalista

Failed hard to pull the trigger - Now using SN
Feb 5, 2023
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So my most recent attempt was a failure due to fear of pulling the trigger. What I didn't realize is maybe I can just use benzos for my initial method rather than hunting for a 100% legitimate SN source.

Does anyone have any experience with this combination? Did it get you very close to fully pulling the trigger?

Is there anything else that I can maybe combine with benzos to just eliminate most, if not all of the SI?
 
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🪦 July 20th, 2003 - January 8th, 2024
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I actually have quite a bit of experience with this, which may not bode well in this circumstance. However, I believe my failure to be due to the specific compound I was taking. Something a little less sedating and more relaxing would've been better I think.

One specific attempt made me think that I had pulled the trigger and I was dead. However this was due to me fading in and out of conciousness at a rapid rate. I could feel my finger pull the trigger and I felt the recoil of the gun. It was so vivid, I was certain that I had succeeded. Then I look at my hands, then the gun. I count my bullets and I hadn't fired one.
Very strange feeling that lasted just until my head hit the pillow that night.

I'm certain this can work, but you'll definitely need a xanax or klonopin. Something with more recreational value. Something you could have fun on. You'll also need determination and enough focus to complete your task instead of going to sleep or getting otherwise engaged.

I wish you luck, friend. I hope you have a safe journey home. I hope you find what you're looking for.
 
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