Update on @sadgirlallonherownn CTB

[Galahad]

Two nights ago we saw @sadgirlallonherownn posting that she'd taken her SN (I've linked her thread below).

She told me in DM she had scheduled a message to her public X account, which has now been posted.

Amongst the comments is one from someone who knew her in real life confirming her passing from "an OD" which we obviously know is actually SN.

She asked me a few days ago to post after a week if I hadn't heard anything and to assume she'd passed but here I am, somewhat surreally, with confirmation.

She wanted us all to remember her and I'm honouring that wish with this thread. She was troubled as many of us are, I'm not going into her private troubles as they've died with her.

I'll never forget her, she shared much of her journey with me, including waiting days for her CTB partner who ultimately let her down. Her excitement in sending me photos of her SN and Meto when they were delivered was palpable, after many failed attempts she was determined to succeed.

She told me that whilst she didn't believe in the afterlife she still hoped to see her Mum (who CTB about 10 years ago) and @decayingdoll (the girl on here from India who CTB with SN on 2nd Oct).

If a Mod asks me for the link to her X I'll share with them but I won't post it here.

RIP we know you're at peace now



Thread 'Tonight is the night, I'm finally catching the bus (hopefully)'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...im-finally-catching-the-bus-hopefully.220866/

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Thanks for sharing OP, love and hugs to you, and peace to @sadgirlallonherownn

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

Thanks for the confirmation. I spoke with her a little in disc. All i know is she used to be online all day, but went off 2 days ago. Because she was so determined, it was clear to me that the ctb was probably successful.

I hope she is in peace now

 

[cloud;.]

I hope she has finally found the peace she was seeking ,i also hope you are ok.

 

[hannu555]

RIP

 

[Galahad]

Thanks for the confirmation. I speaked with her a little in disc. All i know is she used to be online all day, but went off 2 days ago. Because she was so determined, it was clear to me that the ctb was probably successful.

I hope she is in peace now

Did she share her Twitch with you? Her X account is linked there in her profile.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Thank you for sharing this with us. It's brave to be with a person who's about to ctb. Please be kind to yourself OP in this difficult time. I hope she's now released from the suffering and resting well.

 

[Galahad]

Thank you for sharing this with us. It's brave to be with a person who's about to ctb. Please be kind to yourself OP in this difficult time. I hope she's now released from the suffering and resting well.

I'm finding it very difficult, she's constantly on my mind but I know she's at peace and no longer troubled by this world.

I know it's what she desperately wanted and I told her several times she could change her mind right up to the last moment before taking the SN. She was determined it would be the day.

She'd been counting the days (constantly delayed) to her CTB partner arriving, who eventually let her down, and went from wanting a week together first to wanting to do it the evening he was to arrive.
Her final day was fixed, she was never changing her mind.

Once she started her fast and set a timer on her phone it was set in stone for her.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I'm finding it very difficult, she's constantly on my mind but I know she's at peace and no longer troubled by this world.

I know it's what she desperately wanted and I told her several times she could change her mind right up to the last moment before taking the SN. She was determined it would be the day.

She'd been counting the days (constantly delayed) to her CTB partner arriving, who eventually let her down, and went from wanting a week together first to wanting to do it the evening he was to arrive.
Her final day was fixed, she was never changing her mind.

Once she started her fast and set a timer on her phone it was set in stone for her.

I'm sorry. It seems she was fully determined. I'm sure you provided her with the relief she needed at the last moment. Please be proud of yourself and take as much time as you need to heal your grief

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

Did she share her Twitch with you? Her X account is linked there in her profile.

No. Only discord. She asked for help with dark markets, i offered myself to help.

We were talking for a few days, but nothing personal, just me trying to explain how DMs work.