Trying to make it past the holidays

[chrisbate7]

I really want to spend one last Thanksgiving and Christmas with my family. I'll be honest, I'm not sure I can fucking make it. My anxiety is reaching levels I didn't know was possible. I have POUNDING intrusive looping thoughts all god damn day. I feel so much hate for everything and everyone. I feel like I'm losing my fucking mind. It feels like an emergency. Like I need to CTB before I "snap". I feel so aggressive and insane.
I don't know what the fuck caused this shit. My theory is brain damage due to Prozac and klonopin. How the fuck can I make it through until January at least? I'm so terrified to die, I just feel like there is literally no time left for me to try and heal

 

[Frauw]

I'm also trying to make it to new years atleast, but it's getting harder as the days feel longer and longer.

 

[chrisbate7]

I'm also trying to make it to new years atleast, but it's getting harder as the days feel longer and longer.

Yes OMG do the days feel so long. I'm awake for 15 agonizing hours.