Trying again tonight

[happy?1270]

Hopefully will be gone tonight. Previously I planned for Friday and backed out. I need to do it tonight. Everything is ready. Like I said before I backed out because the part of being alone with no ride back home and no way of backing out was what freaked me out of it. I really feel as though I have to do it out here though. The least I can do is have it so my family doesn't have to be the ones to find me.

 

[OminousVaL]

Sorry it has come to this, if you would like to talk I should be available. Smooth travels maybe ill catch up with you sooner than later.

 

[happy?1270]

I've been very back and forth this whole time, and I've decided I won't be ctbing rn. I figured my indecisiveness is a sign I should wait longer. I've been procrastinating on school work and such. I suppose it'll be a good distraction from the past few days. I had a blood test a few days ago soo I suppose I'll finally get answers there and I feel as though these intense moments come in and out despite having been planning this for months. I suppose I should just wait. Ha ik there's no shame in backing out but it seems so ridiculous of me to just be doing this 2 times in the span of a few days. Ugh I suppose I'll just wait a while longer and see what happens what could poooossibly go wrong

 

[Ghost2211]

If you are having indecisiveness it is probably better to wait, and think over the situation a bit more

 

[JustABunchOfAtoms]

I agree

 

[outofluck]

I don't think it's ridiculous. Choosing to end your life is no small matter, or easy thing to do. It's not simple. It's huge.

 

[muffin222]

I'm sorry life has brought you such pain and anguish, but I'm happy to hear you'll be postponing for now. Indecisiveness is definitely a sign to wait and think things through a bit more before taking action, in my opinion. Good luck

 

[sadworld]

It's the most important decision of your life. I'm glad to hear that you decide to postpone.

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm selfish and don't want you to go.