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-Memento Mori-
- Dec 3, 2019
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Before everything else, I said toying for a reason. I am aware how unrealistic that sounds and it probably is.
But when I even entertain the idea, I can almost smell the relief on the other side of it. It also scares me (which is conflicting emotion) because that would mean my supressed emotions and my morals are challenged and attacked in the process. Even empathy.
How I saw myself and the world. If that becomes irrelevant, it actually feels like a mini death in a way. Because, without purpose what are we really?
I never dared to go there tho and I probably am not capable of it. It sounds ridiculous.
It stills scares and excites me.
But when I even entertain the idea, I can almost smell the relief on the other side of it. It also scares me (which is conflicting emotion) because that would mean my supressed emotions and my morals are challenged and attacked in the process. Even empathy.
How I saw myself and the world. If that becomes irrelevant, it actually feels like a mini death in a way. Because, without purpose what are we really?
I never dared to go there tho and I probably am not capable of it. It sounds ridiculous.
It stills scares and excites me.
