the witch’s lament
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- Sep 5, 2020
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I can't go on anymore. I am the worst person that I know, I will never be able to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself and others. I wish I didn't have to leave anyone behind. the only thing giving me comfort is that I won't feel guilty anymore after tonight. there were so many other ways I wanted to CTB, but my circumstances have changed and I have a smaller window to go ahead with it or I won't have another chance for a while. the noose is tied and a stool waits for me in the garage. I hate that it will be a family member to find me. I can't rationalize spending any more time, emotions or money to keep me here when all I want to do is leave.
you all are here for the same reason I am. so I am so very sorry you feel this way. I would never wish this on anyone. hopefully things can change and some of you will be able to find a way to carry on. wish me luck on finding the words for my note and I hope I don't have to come back on here to tell you I am a bigger failure than I was before.
you all are here for the same reason I am. so I am so very sorry you feel this way. I would never wish this on anyone. hopefully things can change and some of you will be able to find a way to carry on. wish me luck on finding the words for my note and I hope I don't have to come back on here to tell you I am a bigger failure than I was before.
