Tonight might very well be the night

[Sk1rtd4b]

After a lot of consideration and thinking tonight might be the night I follow through with it. The plan is to jump from a parking structure and hopefully die when the second I hit that concrete. I was originally going to use SN but after a lot of research it's not the painless almighty method you all make it out to be and I wish a lot of you would stop pushing that agenda because it's simply false. I hope I don't switch up when I get there and look down from the top of the structure, I really want to do this tonight but I know it's not gonna be as easy said as done. I'm really scared for what's to come but at the same time kind of excited. I've been trying to imagine nothingness for the past few days but obviously I failed, I really wanted to try to comprehend the absence of all sensation but it's just not humanly possible. I'm not really scared of this being the outcome however because I won't be able to feel regret or pain or sadness. I won't know what happened nor will I carry any of my past burdens with me. I guess I'm a little scared if the faith I've tried to follow throughout my life ends up being reality but at this point it's a gamble I'm willing to take.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

I hope you find peace

 

[ma0]

I hope you can find the peace you've been searching for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[S like Siren]

jumping has always been one of the first methods I considered... and it continues to be one of my favorite methods, more than sn...the problem is that you need to find the right place and have easily access in an moment when you are sure nobody will stop you or try to help you.
And it's all about being able to give yourself that push to jump...and to jump in the right way.
I truly wish i jumped when I had the perfect opportunity to do it...and also jumping with someone would have helped too...doing it with more confidence and strenght.

 

[martinso67]

My impulse and subconscious wants the jumping method (or the train method). But my rational side and brain wants the SN method.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I'm sorry for where you find yourself now and for what brought you to this point. It is a scary place to be, sending you love and truly hope you find peace.

 

[human909]

Good luck and i hope you find the peace that you've been searching for.

 

[L_n]

best of luck (if you're still here), i hope you find your peace <3

 

[Despondent_Fondant]

I hope you are still with us! I remember seeing you on this site like maybe a year ago and we talked about Ken Carson, and I said I was going to a concert of his. Someone with music taste as good as yours cant be taken so soon :( Much love man, listening to Rockstar Lifestyle rn man, hope you can hear it!!

 

[Sk1rtd4b]

I hope you are still with us! I remember seeing you on this site like maybe a year ago and we talked about Ken Carson, and I said I was going to a concert of his. Someone with music taste as good as yours cant be taken so soon :( Much love man, listening to Rockstar Lifestyle rn man, hope you can hear it!!

Still here, sat on the ledge of the parking structure for at least 2 hours just thinking, I guess my main fear was surviving because it wasn't that high but I have access to skyscrapers that I'll probably pay a visit to this weekend, I appreciate the concern though!

 

[ecstasy]

feel free to reconsider if you need, do whatever feels right
i wish you well

 

[Despondent_Fondant]

Still here, sat on the ledge of the parking structure for at least 2 hours just thinking, I guess my main fear was surviving because it wasn't that high but I have access to skyscrapers that I'll probably pay a visit to this weekend, I appreciate the concern though!

I dont know if this is appropriate to say on this forum but this one for some reason really hit me. I dont know who you are but for some time I felt a weird feeling of loss and sadness. I really hope you can recover <3